#itzwillow

Introducing

⭑.ᐟ soft ruin f!reader

the main character from SOFT RUIN

soft ruin f!reader who would walk into a burning building to save who she could have been before she picked up that bottle. someone loveable

soft ruin f!reader who tightens her tie, adjusts her blouse and sprays her cherry perfume (that cost her half her monthly paycheck) to hide the state of her hungover self

soft ruin f!reader who, despite pushing thirty, still acts childish when she can, to give herself what she lost in her childhood

soft ruin f!reader who adds in the smallest details of a brown-eyed genius into the lines of her novel that she will never publish

who. who?

soft ruin f!reader who devotes her work to saving and helping everyone, yet does nothing to save herself

soft ruin f!reader who smiles and laughs despite it all

who, who?

soft ruin f!reader

soft ruin f!reader who dresses in bright colours, laughs at every joke, smiles and lives a happy life. perceived as such by coworkers and friends.

soft ruin f!reader who drinks herself to almost death every night, and when she's not drunk on the burn of alcohol, it's the soft smile that graces spencer's lips.

likes/dislikes

likes:

'smoking that shit your daddy you smoked in vietnam' absolute vodka fast and furious her grandma pink soduko being smart to prove that she's not the girl her father raised (raised is said lightly cause it was half-assed) writing her thoughts down so her mind doesn't explode spencer reid fluffy socks

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introducing ── .✦.

SOFT RUIN

a f!reader x spencer reid series

meet the reader

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what will this series contain??

yearning, slow slow burn (slowwww), some chapters based of cm episodes, found family, reader is more of a secret than everyone thinks, alcoholism (sorry), self-harm, fluff, smut, angst, lots of silly humour, season 6 to season ??, definitely long series, late night candle burning, shit tone of angst, mercy, diary enteries.

if this series were a song?

⤷ if i can't have you by shawn mendes

if this series was a feeling?

⤷ learning to love yourself

the reason i actually started posting is because i plan to be an author when im older. fantasy is my ideal genre when it comes to writing my first book! i started writing fanfics as a way to practice my writing, and obviously, i used spencer reid as the character because, well... it's spencer reid. i have loved writing so so freaking much and finding so much love in making stories and giving spencer the love he needs:)

i will be writing more, definitely because this is so fun and such a nice outlet for life, spencer will always be my baby, but i will be writing more about different characters for example i just posted a fluffy fic about aaron hotchner! i also will be posting some bucky barnes cause he's just so daddy and cutie at the same time, got me smiling and kicking my feet.

i love you all, and all the comments and reposts with your thoughts are such a lovely thing to get as writer and please if you have any thoughts do speak them, the author always loves people's commentary!

i appreciate everything, and my fics getting as much love as they have been is a thing i hold close to my heart:)

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last song: guys my age by hey violet (literally think of hotch when listening to this 😭)

favourite colour: purple!!!

currently watching: umm, im not really a tv show girly (except from criminal minds, obviously). i am on my 3rd criminal minds rematch, but i'd also like to count binging willne and james vids on youtube :p

currently reading: voracious by leigh rivers (the second book in the edge of darkness trilogy) 🖤𓂃⋆.˚

current obsession: fast and furious, tmnt, spencer reid, ethal cain, my sims 4 save and so much more

last google search: www.cryptickillers.com (I was doing one of those fake crime things with my friend and mum yesterday) (we got it right because we are fucking geniuses and no we didn't need spencer reid but i did kinda feel like him)

currently working on: can i make you feel good? (part two of do you want me to teach you) - it should be posted today x

get to know me!

willow - 18 - taurus- she/her ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

words to describe me? -> purple, autumn, leonardo (from tmnt), fanfiction, paperbacks, absent father, painting, cats, aussie shepherds, spencer reid, bucky barnes, living up to my own expectations, pepsi cherry, fast cars, sims 4, nerdy but not enough to be smart.

fun facts about me -> i colour my hair all the time (have purple hair rn!), im welsh, i live in england, i have celiacs disease, i also have diagnosed autism and ADD, i have over 300 books in my room, use to be a dsmp fan (dark times). im in a year and a half long relashionship and i have been a bucky fan since 2018!

my hobbies! -> writing, reading, contemplating, painting, gyming, walking, colouring, drawing, strange diy that is always last minute, photography, rewatching criminal minds, blowjobs.

my currents -> reading: voracious by leigh rivers and pound of flesh on a03 by godmadeaterribleerror. watching: criminal minds and also binging willne on yt. fav colour: purple. fav food: salmon and rice. fav drink: pepsi max cherry. fav song: throughfare, strangers and inbred by ethel and most songs by sleep token. fav books: throne of glass series by sarah j mass. fav movies: teenage mutant ninja turtles out of the shadows and fast and furious movies 1-4 (including Tokyo drift).

current hyperfixation: becoming the best version of myself.

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questions asked by followers/ moots:

question 1- 4 asked by -> @theyre-shoe-shoes-silly

1. what is your hottest take?

- as much as i ship pen and derek i think them being platonic friends speaks more intimacy than one kiss or them being in a relationship ever would.

2. what do people compliment you about the most?

-my eyes and my courage. and who i have become in the past couple of years even through all the shit i went through, change is something people applaude and compliment me for:)

3. what fictional universe would you live in? (and where in that universe?)

-as much as i want to say criminal minds because fuck yeah id get all that dick, im not quite sure i could stomach it, i would for most of it but fuck id be so stressed and out of it. i think that maybe if i could it tho it would be the falcon and the winter soilder, slow burn with bucky too yk. i think i would be such a bad ass character and have such a good time building friendships and family and i would have amazing fight scenes. i don't know where exactly i would live but my own brooklyn apartment sounds nice.

4. if you could only work minimum wage jobs what would be your dream job?

bookshop worker, wanna sell books and get discounts, count me in!

to send questions in just use the ask box:)