#itsbday

Aaaand we’re on our way! On my way to get my Botox in my bladder 🙌🏻! #itsbday #botoxinmybladderday #bladderspasmscankissmyass https://www.instagram.com/p/B4R4efYBfr7/?igshid=fbdvyfmlds3j

Despite the 5am wake up after about 2 hours sleep, despite the bone deep exhaustion, despite the spasms, despite the pain, despite the seizure I had at 2am, despite the fact my left knee isn’t working at all today... this morning I am ridiculously happy 😁! Because today? Today, after 8 weeks of horrific suffering, it’s finally B Day, aka BOTOX IN MY BLADDER DAY 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻🎉🎉🎉!!! I did it, y’all. I made it, and without any hospital admissions, or suffering an arrest (although we’ve had a few close calls). Absolutely owe the fact that, although the last 8 weeks have been awful, that have been survivable, to the wonder that is @cityhospice 💚 and their outside of the box treatments, but especially their kindness and support 💚 Also a big shout out to the amazing staff here at LMC who have had their bear witness to my suffering and have handled it with the ultimate grace 💛 there were days I wouldn’t have gotten through without their love, hand holding, and ability to refill my hot water bottles at the speed of light. And finally, thank you to my family and friends, especially the ones who got messages and phone calls from me saying I’d have enough and who lifted me up and kept me fighting, both in person, over the phone, and especially online 💪🏻💖 We did it, y’all. Let’s hope we never have to live through another 6 week delay in Botox ever again! #itsbday #botoxinmybladderday #thankfuckforthat #wemadeit🙌🏻 #palliativecarewarrior #couldnthavedonethiswithoutyall #thankyou #bladderspasmscankissmyass https://www.instagram.com/p/B4RhvNKhbk-/?igshid=oykn630g46fv

It’s been a good day, but also an emotional one, a tiring one, and a looong one. Expect updating tomorrow (or rather, later today!) all about my YA Hub hospice clinic today and our Squad outing tonight (yesterday now, I guess!). Right now I’m literally counting down the hours until I have my operation for Botox in my bladder... just 11 hours and 55 minutes (give or take a few hours/minutes) to go!! I’m so happy that I made it 😭 it’s finally B Day (Botox-in-my-bladder Day), and my pain and spasms will finally be made bearable again. It’s been 8 weeks of constant bladder spasms, constant agony, and utter misery, and I bloody ready for it to be over! Right now, ironically, my bladder spasms are causing me too much pain to sleep. I’ve just given in and taken my first lot of meds and done my first injection in the hopes things will calm down enough that I can grab 3 or 4 hours sleep before I have to get up. It’s gonna be another very long, busy and tiring day tomorrow! Hope y’all are getting more sleep than me 😂! #palliativecarewarrior #bladderspasmssuck #itsbday #botoxinmybladderday #thankfuckforthat👊 #trynasleep #knackered https://www.instagram.com/p/B4Q37X5BH4H/?igshid=1u159xbbmacn1

Good morning! We’re just stopping by subway to pick up a salad for later and then we’re headed to Neath Port Talbot Hospital for me to have my Botox in my bladder; IT’S FINALLY B DAY GUYS!! No more bladder spasms! 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻 #botoxinmybladderday #itsbday #botoxday #mybladdersucksatbeingabladder #bladderspasmssuck #goodbyebladderspasms #palliativecarewarrior #goodmorning (at Cardiff) https://www.instagram.com/p/BvjFLRdn9ln/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gjuatil96kjs

Guess who was awake at 4am because I was so exhausted yesterday I crashed at 6pm?? ME! It was okay though, cause I had to be up at 5am anyways, because today is B Day; that’s right, in all the chaos, I forgot to tell y’all today is actually Botox In My Bladder day! Got another long day ahead of me. But I’m looking forward to giving the amazing staff on the Unit their Christmas pressies 🎁🎄☃️😁❤️ #botoxinmybladderday #itsbday #iforgotinallthechaos #anotherlongandbusyday #knackeredalready #goodmorning https://www.instagram.com/p/BrUXpykHda3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1bwxel2l4mmd4

Aaaaand we’re off! In the van 🚌 on our way to Neath Port-Talbot Hospital for my Botox in my bladder 💉!! Not many people get excited about having a general anaesthetic, having a machine breathe for you for a while, and having 300 Botox injections in their bladder... but I am 🙌🏻! Because I get to say goodbye to my bladder spasms and hello to a much better quality of life, with less pain, less spasms, and less risk of an arrest (the breathing/heart kind, not the jail kind!). Also, the staff at NPT Hospital are absolutely incredible, and have made such a tremendous effort to help me deal with my PTSD and make B Day a comfortable, and even enjoyable experience. They’re gonna love seeing my holiday photos 📸! #botoxinmybladderday #itsbday #botoxinjections #generalanesthetic #neathporttalbothospital #whatfantasticnursesanddrs #aaaandwereoff #onmyway #wemadeitguys👏 #imadeit #goodmorning #palliativecarewarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn8VyRshq6Z/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=tgkkr7pokly4