i remember in 2020 when everyone was talking about being attracted to women and just being sapphic in general, i could never relate not because i wasnt into women but because i never had a we’re both “girls” i cant be with you😭it was more like we’re both kids so i cant be with you. i wasnt allowed to feel attraction without being guilty because of family.
idk during that era i wasnt like oh my god we can hold hands be so cute. my feelings were more i want you to suffocate me with your body and teach me how to please you. it felt like my attraction was different at that time. like obviously i wanted to hold hands and be cute but i also want to fuck?? like im sorry my feelings do not stop at just hand holding! i wanted to marry them and be a pervert. but now i dont feel like i relate to sapphic since it feels more like a women centered label and since im not i dont feel like i should use it. i dont know i think it’s cause i feel more masc/boy even though i dress fem.
