#it is probably

to see people i care about left and right just throw their hands up and fucking give up. my mom is constantly depressed because of divorce shit. my sister is having issues. some of my friends have issues.and i want to SCREAM at them!!! and i know it’s not fair!! it’s not right!!! i’ve done the same thing FUCK i still do!! just yesterday i was crying in the woods while walking the fuckin dog imagining in what ways i could snap my neck!!! crash my skull open on a rock or something!! but i dont because i cant and then people i love look at me with these sad fucking eyes and i  want to yell at them that they cant give up cause fuck if they do then whats the point then i have nothing to stick around for i cant do this again i cant be lonely again im so close to getting a shot at being the person ive always wanted to be but why  bother when the fucking world sucks anyway and everyones going to die and asshole fascist dickheads get to rule everything and the planet is imploding fuck