#isssshhh

Funny about waiting is the attitude. Attitude how to wait. Damn.

I feel bad saying this because i don't ever want my parents to think they are the cause of my anxiety but sometimes they amplify it and just generally make it worse. And like I came home after training in for my job at the state fair and I was explaining how I was really excited and wasn't really nervous about it anymore (I had a panic attack before I went so this was a great feeling) and my parents were just being really shitty about it. Like they kept asking me how I was going to get home from the fair at such a late time (I work till close) because they don't feel comfortable of me riding the bus then- even tho I'm 19 :\ and I was explaining how I'm going to be helping people with the extreme rides and my mom was like "isn't that scary, like if you don't harness them up right then serious injuries could happen." And ik I sound really whiney and annoying about all this but like I've already thought about all of these issues and was giving myself mental pep talks in my head about how I could do it and I just had to remain calm and not overthink it all... But when they vocalize it it just makes it 10x worse...