#isel

back before Sidas joined the nLo, he spent all his time with his little brother Mephitic. they were all that eachother had, sidas took care of them and-and then meph started making money of his own gamblin. they were happy at first but... but meph was Greedy, he doesn't care about consequences or people below him, now that he was at the top- and soon, his own brother was below him. meph pretended he wasn't associated with sidas or got his friends to Ridicule and Mess w/ him,, sidas kept going every night to try to make sure his little brother didn't get himself killed. lookin out for him, just like Before.

this was how sidas met isel- the only person here regarded as More of a failure and embarrassment than he was. he somehow scourged up enough money to buy sidas a drink and asked him Why he looked so sad... This is supposed to be a happy place! ^^. sidas... figured this guy was either far too drunk to understand anything he said, or someone he literally was never going to see again. so he told him about his horrid life... how the only person that he Had had abandoned him and was gonna get himself killed now while..while pushing him away. he had NOBODY. and isel just moved his hand onto his... and said you have Me now !! ^v^

it took the two a bit to get to a place where they both understand eachother's boundaries and wants, but.. they listen to eachother. they are the only 2 people who listen to eachother and.. and see each other as PEOPLE. sidas stops goin just to try to Heckle meph, and instead just beelines for his friend and spends the time until he has to bring meph home with him. he doesn't know that isel doesn't have a house anymore. they listen to eachother- but he has No idea how deep in isel is. isel doesn't talk about himself, his past, his life... all that matters is that he's happy while he's in the bar, and with sidas.

one night isel gets beat up, and sidas brings him back to him and meph's house to clean him up- meph finds them and kicks them out of their own house. the house that sidas had built for Them. they live in ..isel's Alley together. they're just glad they're together at least. (this is where the art with isel wearin sidas's shirt takes place)

then. isel finds out and tells sidas about... the people behind the bar wanting Meph. wanting his head for,, for his debt for his secret swindling of them this entire time. he tells him knowing how much sidas cares about his brother, even when meph doesnt.. but he didnt realize just HOW much sidas cared about his brother. because after this, sidas goes missing.

isel spends a year trying-trying to get ANYONE to-to CARE. to realize he's gone,, grabbing onto meph's coat just to have him Shove him off... he can't be happy anymore. he-he can't be Blissfully ignorant. without sidas,, he's the miserable desperate broke little man he always was inside. he can't turn it off, he can't Hide it.

after some amount of time, he's taken by a man in a pale orange eyemask. he's told that sidas is Dead- and he's his replacement.

he spends some years 'working' for the nLo. they're bad.

eventually... Bonesaw (hels!doc) ends up working with Cicatrix (hels!scar), who has... mind controlling powers. isel is numb again, at least. that's a relief compared... compared to just Bonesaw.

Koray (hels!grian), Sidas, and Indulge (the hels equalivalent to the hippes of the a77 arc) find him when they're trying to stop Bonesaw and Cicatrix from destroying the entire dimension- and Sidas recognizes him Instantly. he never thought that he'd see him again.

isel doesn't recognize him instantly,, due to the..mind Fuzziness.

but he feels safe with him. and eventually memories start coming back- comradery, the nights they spent together, the happiness and bliss. he doesn't remember the negative things. how miserable, useless and desperate they were.. sidas doesnt know..if this is better?

isel loves koray and sidas. he makes them an amazing house with what seems like muscle memory... they find limbo. he's happy.

sidas can't let him... live a lie. after the nLo forced him to be positive, kept Everything from him and forced him to just be a blissful, little pawn, isel needs to know everything. he needs to know who he IS.

when sidas tells him, it breaks him. he goes missing for a week.

sidas, after sleepless nights of looking for him, finds him in a bar.

he-he's acting Exactly like he did- like he did when they met. it's terrifying. he tries to flirt with sidas as he comes over just- horrified- seeing him like this,,again,... . They were better they were Healed they-they had a family they had a home now. he isn't,, this,,anymore.

he brings him home and wakes up next morning to isel tearing apart the house, the kitchen-- looking for something to numb the pain. the Misery the panic the Agony of knowing,,knowing how much he's wasted his life, how much of a vermin and pest beneath everyones foot he is-- back in the bar, he drank so much to forgot this. forget his debt, forget him selling his own house and clothes to try to get money to pay off the nLo,, and he was oblivious after the mind control. but now, Sidas.,, had reopened all these wounds,, he was the most clear of his life than he had been in MORE than a decade.

but sidas calmed him down-- koray came over soon too and- and. and. yes. it.. it. it was Fucked. but he doesn't have to be like this anymore. he has all of them- and they love him. and he means the World to sidas - he always has.