Aug 10
I wish I could find an analysis or a fanfic about how Niall is actually Ruben's biggest threat to his toxic hypermasculinity despite the latter think of the first as an actual "half man"
#half man#niall kennedy#ruben#richard gadd#jamie bell#idk if tag this as ship despite i do?#rubambi#is bcs when i ship something i am more interested in the non romsntic aspects of it#despite niall was a victim he was also accidentally a threat to ruben's facade bcs the latter just didnt registered him as a full man#but Niall even if it was for egocentric reasons still confessed the truth and automatically sent ruben to prison#niall passed a long time thinking ruben provided for him and even blackmailed him by talking with Ava#sottone as niall is ofc he still followed ruben's instructions to follow his wife and wanted to tell him about what he found out#JUST TO FIND OUT NIALL WASN'T PROVIDING AT ALL#and then ofc the cherry on top being actually Baird's father#despite Niall is victim of Ruben most toxic masculine actioms he could ever inflict on him he still menaged to be an obstacle#mostly to ruben's obsession with control#couldn't follow his og plan against Alby#saw ruben was lying#and even being not two BUT TWICE A DAD#is just interesting how as much of a victim of circumstances niall is he's still actually an asshole and accidentally a threat to Ruben#is ironic#personal opinion but to me niall is more interesting to explore bcs ruben's story despite being amazing has been explored as a trope alread#niall being this obvs weaker and queer man still hiding the obvs to the closest person he ever care for bcs he was scared#all his failings both bcs of hia personality and the trauma#how he is not exploring his sexuality in an healthy way at all#and sorry but havjng to deal with a very bad mother#i dont thonk lori is bad as Maura but my god ur son is an amazing smart guy and struggling could u please stop#Alby u kimda sottone too bcs wtf#is ironic ruben has to kills the final danger to his own masculinity who always stopped him by KILLING HIM#i theorize he doesnt want to kill niall solely for the child but bcs niall is indeed ruben's worst enemy
