#ipushmyself

Challenge yourself Nikey. It's only 3 flights of stairs Nikey. You got this Nikey... Big boss voice: I bet you can run them. I forgot I wore heels today. Eeekkk. #whenyourpeptalkgoeswrong #ididit #ididntdietho #neverbackdown #ipushmyself #diaryofarunninglady (at Downtown Wilmington, Wilmington) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2fDC9IF99X/?igshid=3vqla6rzs0be

I told them it's like I'm having a panic attack. So I sat out for the rest of practice. I went to the dr cause it continued the next day and they told me it could be 1 of two things 1) it's a blood clot in my lung 2) it could be pneumonia They said take it easy at practice. For the flowing week I have to tell my captain that I'm being a week ass because of these things happening in my lungs. She gives me a look...you know the one. And my heart races and I get really nervous. She says "you better keep me informed after you see the dr." The next day I find out its neither but that my lungs are functioning 55% below where they should be. But it's reatable. I text my captain and tell her what's up. She seems relived. My captain is worried that I'm scared to play. It's so not ture. I've never wanted anything more. But I can tell she respects the hard work I've put it. Just another uncomfortable conversation in a relationship.