#inwaitforsomethingbetter

They would initially be at odds, I think. They are very similar and also very different. They are both dedicated to Starfleet and Federation ideals. They both come to command from a foundation in science. They are both decisive, both brave. They both care deeply, and sometimes it scares them. But Kathryn is more playful, Katrina more thoughtful. Kathryn is bold, Katrina is deliberate. Katrina asks why, Kathryn asks why not.

I also ship both women with everyone and believe that everyone falls for them. But not in the same way. Kathryn is aware of her magnetism and she plays along. She is used to everyone falling for her charms and becoming hopelessly devoted to her at first sight. She expects and pushes people to be their best selves for her. Kathryn flirts wildly with actually everyone, but has clear, specific rules about relationships.

Katrina’s charisma is quieter and she is not as aware of the effect she has on people. She is focused externally; where Janeway pulls people into her orbit, Katrina is reflective, expecting and pushing people to be their best selves for themselves. She’s not a flirt, but her boundaries are much more fluid.

Any meeting would require time shenanigans so they have a built in problem to problem solve, and problem solving could lead to late night conversation and a blurring of roles. Katrina could present a challenge to Kathryn because she wouldn’t immediately fall for her. Kathryn could present a challenge to Katrina because she would hide her real feelings behind her superficial puckishness. Once it got late enough, and they got loopy enough, they would bond over all the things they do have in common, and the loneliness inherent to being a woman in charge. Kathryn’s loneliness is more acute, which counselor Katrina would pick up on. I think, given enough time to really get to know each other, they would both be better for the interaction. Kathryn would help Katrina let go in terms of how she presents herself, and Katrina would help Kathryn let go in terms of how she interacts with people personally. 

They could definitely have fun in a Girls Night Out-Grown Up Slumber Party kind of way, and they could be great friends, but I don’t see them as compatible for a long term romance. 

3.favorite line/scene you wrote this year

Ohman, I’ve had a lot of fun with quite a few scenes this year. I didmy first ever NC17 scene in my revision if Amor in Tempore TantumTempus found on AO3. I followed with my first ever PWP a couplemonths ago. They’re fun, so I’m probably going to come up withthem every once in a while. My favorite though? A recentbit- the beginning chapters of my new long work feature a lot of funparts. Sneak peek:

“You’reStarfleet,” the half-Klingon woman sneered at her, spitting theblood from her gushing nose out of her mouth.

Kathrynblanched at the foreboding tone as much as at a half empty bottle asit bounced off her spine.

Sheturned to duck another impromptu missile flying through the air on apath towards her head.

“You’djust like that, wouldn’t you, half-breed.” Kathryn could give asgood as she got. Better even.

Despitethe obvious disdain the two had for each other at first sight, theymoved together to watch every direction and ease into a safe placefarther from the bar brawl.I plan on getting a lot ofprogress into this story and I already like where it’s going.

15.something you learned this year

Somany things.

Ilearned that smut has a large readership! The response to the shortPWP pieces is so different from longer works and AU. It’s superinteresting to see the trends in readership depending on the type ofwork. When I first wrote/read fic back in the early 2000s, I neverremember anything like the tools we now have for posting andinteracting with our readers and other writers. I don’t think I waspart of the proper circles, as I only ever posted to or read on theJetC Index for J/C, or a few (also now archived) SG-1-specific sites.

I’ll give you both:

O: How do you begin a story--with the plot, or the characters?

Usually I start with a few lines of dialogue or a distinct scene, which in turn inspire a whole plot around them. Sometimes I do have a plot idea, but no real inspiration for the story itself...so I’d say I usually start with the characters, by having them say or do or think something specific that the rest of the plot builds around.

U: A pairing you might like to write for, but haven't tried yet.

10. How nefarious is Lorca?(oyyy moral philosophy)My view on Lorca has changed a lot during the season, with me being horrified of seeing psychopathic traits in the beginning and then understanding where he is coming from. He is a the end justifies the means type of person, and I can’t pronounce that inherently evil, more morally grey. Can some of his actions themselves be considered outrageous? Certainly. Does that make him as a person vile? Nah man, life is so much more complicated than that. And more importantly, it makes him a terribly fascinating character. I see him as so ethically consequentialist that I would consider him being downright altruistic, if he believed it would be the way to help the situation, which is why I called him a protector of the people in one of my headcanons.I know a bunch of people hate the idea that he is from an alternate universe* but in my view, the reason he seems so selfish right now is because he has to be, because he is the only one that knows that he has to go back and save his people. He is the only one in control, and he will do no matter what to save those he loves. And I mean sure, that’s probably a trope but I can empathise with this deeply so I don’t care.  The way I see it, he is an idealist cornered, a protector turned cynical. He isn’t evil. He’s traumatised.

*ETA: to be fair, on the second read I realised that all this works even if he isn’t from an AU. Actually, it works even better, because now he is consequentialist because he realises that rules will often lead to more death, and his way, while it might be morally ambiguous, leads to less death, and hence is the road he is willing to take.

Thank you, hon! <3

L: What's the weirdest AU you've ever come up with?

Ummm. I think the River and the Doctor meet on a park bench was a bit bizarre.  Didn’t turn out quite like I wanted it to. And SwanQueen body painter AU came from watching way too many episodes of Skin Wars. 

X: A character you enjoy making suffer.

F and I got asked here and here if you haven’t seen :)

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?

so many it’s not even funny but i’ll pick a few at random:

a story inspired by a song whose theme will be insomnia and late night J/C talks

my one-of-these-fucking-days-it-will-be-finished Full Circle/Proxima missing scene fic

a Harry/Seven idea @carlynroth inadvertently gave me that I kinda can’t wait to start

(non Trek) a prequel to my seaQuest fic “Hand of Wrath”, exploring the relationship of Marilyn Stark and her (OC) wife