#insercure

Pairing: Fermin Lopez x F!Reader

Summary: A relationship with your brother's best friend isn't always the best idea. How could you tell your brother. And worse how will he react.

Includes: Female reader, Insecure reader kinda, Angsty, Fermin kinda being a jerk, Fluff

Authors note: I hope you enjoy! I will make the request box tomorrow and also the masterlist!

Word count: 1.6K

Sneaky. That word I knew too well, even if I didn't. It something nobody should know but so many do. You sneak around to hide something, a secret. And the secret that Ive been trying to hide was someone who happened to be very close with my brother. The boy that I shared unseen looks with unknown kisses with. The boy that I sneaked into hotels, my room, my house, his house. A boy that I cared very deeply for. But that boy was also the boy that I couldn't love loudly. At least not until we tell my brother.

I look up at the ceiling while lying in bed, another body right beside mine. That body belonged to the one and only Fermin. I was able to feel his gaze on me, intensely staring. "Your staring" I looked at him from the side of my eye. "I know. I can't help it" "now why can't you?" "You know why" I can just tell by the way he said that sentence that he was smirking.

"Wipe that smirk off your face Fermin" a light smile appeared on my face. "I think I'm ok" he planted soft kiss on my cheek.

"Fermin" "yes love" my eyes couldn't meet his. My heart pounded so hard that I could hear it in my ears, almost as though someone was knocking on my eardrum. "When are we going to tell him." I bite my lip hard; I already knew that the response he was going to give me would be an empty promise, but I still had to ask. "I don't know love. Maybe soon" "Fermin you said that last time, and the time before that. When is it ever going to be true." "Can we not do this right now" I could tell that he was irritated, but how was that far to any of us, this secret wasn't something small, it was huge.

"No, we need to because I let you lie to me every time, this isn't something that can be dealt with lightly" "I know that y/n, but I don't want to ruin my friendship with Gavi." I looked deeply into his eyes even while getting up from the bed. "But that won't happen if he cares about both of us then he won't be mad and even if he was mad, he wouldn't let that get in the way." "You don't know that. I'm not willing to risk it."  My heart sank immediately "Are you not willing to risk it because you're embarrassed or something. Or do you just like me enough to actually give this a shot."  "Y/n/n you know that's not at all the reason why" I started packing my backpack "wait what are you doing" he said sitting up immediately "I'm going so you can get your priorities straight because clearly I'm not one of them Fermin" tears ran down my face before I reached for the door and left.

A few days had passed by then and my mood had just taken a turn. I tried to keep my mood up, to not let the situation that had happened a few days ago affect me, but I couldn't. 

My mood was so bad so that Gavi had even noticed. 

There was a light knock on my door. "Come in." with that Gavi opened the door and walked in before closing it behind him. "How are you?" he questioned. "I'm fine." "I know you're lying; I can tell from how you've been acting lately. So, what's wrong?" He sat on the edge of my bed right next to me. 

I tried hard to hold in my tears, but before I even realized the tears were already falling and the salty bitter taste of them made its way to my face. "Hey, what's wrong." He softly wiped the tears from my cheeks, but they just kept going. "The boy I love doesn't want to be public. And he doesn't want to tell you." "Who is it?" He looked at me with concern not because of who it might be but because I was hurting. "Please don't be mad at who it is" "I won't, I promise." I look into his eyes to see if he was telling the truth. "It's Fermin..." 

It took a couple minutes for him to process everything. After though he nodded his head. "You're not mad?" "No, I kind of figured that you would end up with one of them. At least either you or aurora. I'm just don't like the way he's been treating you, making you cry."  I nod my head. "I knew you wouldn't be mad; I told him that but no he didn't want to listen to me." "He's an idiot then" Gavi made a weird face "No he's not, don't call your friend that."

He got up and headed for the door; he turned to me before heading out. "You're coming to my game tomorrow right?" "Yes, of course, I'll always come to your game." "Okay, I'm count you to it" "Yea, I bet you are." I giggle a bit.

Today was game day. Me and Aurora had been at the stadium around the same time Gavi got here, which is pretty damn early.  But people had finally started coming in and taking their seats, so we went to get out seats. As always, our seats were front row, Clearest view of the field I would say. The boys were practicing and stretching on the field while me and my sister were talking. But of course, it was hard for me to keep my eyes from drifting over at Fermin, but I couldn't do anything about the problem at hand right now so for now we just wait until the game starts, watch the game, talk to the boys on the field, then go home.

Gavi's Pov

We're practicing, getting ready for the match. I was running laps before I stopped to get some water. Fermin came up to me.

"Hey man." dabbing me up "Hey" I answer back. "Listen I need to talk to you." I now face him fully. "Yea what's up?" "I know about you and my sister." A shocked expression appeared on his face. His mouth opened but I start talking before he could say anything "I'm not mad at the fact that you guys have something there. I am mad that you hurt her though, she didn't deserve that, and you need to make it up to her. And I say this because I can tell that she really likes you and damn you would be a foul to not like her a lot. And it really shouldn't have mattered if I was going to be mad at you or not because sooner or later, I would have gotten over it."

A few minutes went by before I spoke up again. "That's all I to say." I walked away and before I knew it the game was about to start.

Back to Y/n's Pov

The game had ended, and of course, they won.

I was over by Gavi, talking to him and Pedri alongside our sister. Soon I saw all three of their glances look behind me and instinctively I also looked behind me. I saw Fermin, holding a box and flower. 

"We're going to give you guys a few..." My sister said with them backing up to give us some room and somewhat privacy. "How are you" He asked immediately "To be honest with you not the best" I was looking down, scared to look him in the eyes. "Can you look at me; I need to tell you something."  I nod and finally look up meeting his eyes for the first time in days. 

"Listen I was so dumb. And I know that and I also know that you knew that too, but I let fear take over me and I shouldn't have. Because the love I have for you is so much stronger than that and I know that. As much as I want you to forgive me, I will not make you forgive me. Because I want you to want to forgive me, I want to earn that forgiveness. All I can say is how truly and deeply sorry I am because you don't deserve to be hidden. You deserved to be bragged about. And if you want to continue this that is what I will do alongside to loving you properly, adoring you, and so many other things. I love you and I'm sorry."

Tears lightly formed in the brims of my eyes. I looked into his eyes deeply and intently. "Thank very much. But I do have one question." "Yea what is it" "are you doing this because my brother talked to you, and don't even try to deny it I know he did> Or are you doing this because you truly want to?" "Before your brother even came up to me, I was going to apologize. That speech I gave to you I wrote that same night you left."

That made me even more emotional. "Ok then, I forgive you" I hugged him right away and he hugged me back tighter. As if at any moment I would disappear. "You are never going to be someone I am ashamed of" he whispered into my ears

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JAY ELLIS

the empty arms and cold hands?

the small hole i feel when i think of love?

i think i am meant for loneliness

the feeling of being unloved

i’m in love with love,

but i have never loved

i want full arms and warm hands

i want to be whole

i want to love

That’s not weird at all, I like a bit of chub to hug as well. This is a great request and I can’t wait to start writing it.

Master list

    "Don't you dare" you warned, as a  smile spread across your cheeks, Jacob's hand in the sack of flour, a mischievous grin at his lips, before launching the white powder at you, your now flour covered face frozen in shock, before grabbing your own handful and chucking it at the skilled baker.

The pair of you running about the back of the bakery like children, covered from head to toe in flour, both in peals of laughter. Until you called a truce, catching your breath as you leant heavily on the counter, Jacob joining you shortly after he deemed it safe, only for you to get one last throw in, wriggling his moustache, a flurry of flour falling from his upper lip, making you giggle. 

Jacob finally shushing  you the best way that he knew, with a giggly flour covered kiss, his hand coming up to cup your flour smeared cheek, dusting the powder away. “what would you say to a bath Mr Kowalski?’ you asked a slightly seductive tone to voice.

His eyebrows raised, almost disappearing underneath his flour sprinkled hair, ‘really?’ he asked uncharacteristically unsure, insecurity clear in his warm chocolate brown eyes. “yes, of course. Its fine if you don’t want to, you know’ you reassured clasping his hand in yours, your floury state now unimportant, pushed to the back of your mind, to make way for your partners worries.

“no’ Jacob exclaimed a little louder than he had intended, ‘no, it’s not that’ he amended, his voice calmer, but still uncertain, as you stroked your fingers across his cheek, trying to reassure him. “you can tell me, you know that right?’ a soft smile at your lips, before Jacob placed a quick kiss to your forehead, giving you his silent thanks. “I just, you’re so gorgeous, inside and out, and sometimes I think that you should have someone, who’s more, you know’ he finished lamely, his hand laying at his rounded stomach, his handsome face covered with guilt. Piecing together what he was trying to say,   before cupping his cheek, turning his head so that he would look you in the eye.

“Jacob, I love you, you are the sweetest most loving man I have ever met, and I love your chub, your soft and cuddly, I wouldn’t change a thing about you.’ Moving your hand from his cheek, to lie on his own that still sat at his stomach, a smile growing at his lips as you looked up at him, love clear in your eyes.

“what about that bath?’ Jacob asked, a cheeky smile sitting easily on his lips.

  Have a great day and be safe