#inquiry.

“R-right now?”

Ever –– would be the correct question, response, and reaction all in one to this request. It is the exact opposite of the number of times you’ve been asked this question. So the never-ending stream of thoughts that rushes through you mind likely will show no signs of stopping soon, and you might as well fumble this further instead of clinging to the confusion about what would ever make someone so pretty choose something so below-average looking.

Ere a few seconds pass, there is a clumsily attached if you want to, we can, and the cheap glue you used to do so dries far too slowly, with your words now threatening to drop away with a preemptively imagined plop to their fall.

The only way to save it, you feel, is to quit staring and inch towards Aeva.

It takes a minute to realize that she’s not as cold as you imagined her to be; less akin to the perfect, ancient greek sculpture and more like the last time you hugged your mum before going to bed, but still lying to her about heading to sleep early. But this thought alone lets you relax tremendously.

31: Does somebody love you?

Taken aback by the question, asked in such an accusatory, or maybe even pitiable fashion, you find yourself quieter than usual. It takes a moment to process. Does somebody love you? Is this question applicable at all; to someone who never even received the obligatory giri-choco for Valentine’s day, and has never received a secret note that is carefully passed through the classroom to ask the common “yes, no, maybe” question?

Perhaps, no one has loved you in the way a romantic partner would. Though far too humiliated by that, you sway your answer, constructing a carefully laid out thought which might make your life sound less depressing than it often feels.