I'm training to be able to speak in a way that completely removes any intent of power from my words (or any power that might generate itself). I want to speak so that my words can simply be accepted or not, with the reach of my message forming organically, without the support of symbolic capital. I'm training to reduce my words to what I truly think or am still coming to understand. In my opinion, this requires battling the ego, distinguishing externally imposed needs from those essential for proper functioning.
I’m training myself to not feel jealousy, to engage in only healthy competition, to cultivate good mental habits, assertiveness, and clarity without illusions. I’m training for balance between asceticism and a shout of vitality.
I’m not aiming for an ego-free expression; rather, I strive for a level of detachment where you can hear and see the thought ❤. It’s incredibly difficult because I have a tangled, contradictory nature, but I want this.
