Apr 9, 2023
it’s so fucking crazy to me that i have 2 years without getting loaded. i almost relapsed in January, had a shot made up and stuck myself but didn’t do it cause my ex was in the car & i knew she would tell my job and my life would fall apart. it’s even more insane that i work for the fucking state & my employer and coworkers all trust me. i rent a place in my name & bought a car recently. i’ll be a junkie til i take my last breath but i’m not actively engaging in that and sometimes it just feels like a dream.
