#boi

I squeeze my legs together and get all squirmy in my chair without even noticing. My breathing becomes more shallow and I can feel the energy in my arms and legs move into my pretty little boi parts.

I swallow harder and my eyes go wide. I feel like a complete animal, all of my experiences and reactions are not mine to author. It’s my body which is reacting without my driving it.

When I become aware of it it feels so pleasurable, almost pleasurable enough to cum my panties. I want to surrender more deeply to it and I want the sensations to be fulfilled by contact with the Man.

His hands, his voice, his Cock, his control.

a failure to preserve the directionality of desire.

You perceive some quality in another person and experience attraction toward it:

“I desire X in her.”

But somewhere in the processing, that gets transformed into:

“X is desirable.”

And then, because X has become a generalized measure of desirability:

“Therefore I should possess X.”

Those propositions are absolutely not equivalent.

I desire her → I identify what makes her desirable → I internalize that criterion → I measure myself against it → I eroticize becoming what I originally desired.

what I find desirable ≠ what I should become.

HELLO!! thank you sososo much!!! :) it isn't yet but it is in 20 minutes.. 😲 im so excited ...