#infjdiary

i got a reel about the broken bone theory a few days ago and i have not been the same since. like no broken bones but yeah a lot of emotional struggles and my body is still failing me with my chronic illness (╥﹏╥)

From my own fire of destruction Ive been burned to the ground My ashes blew upwards with the wind and my emotions cant be held in They push and pull inside every edge of me and i lash out without noticing There is a hidden pain with sugar coated smiles From where does it stem How long have you been sitting there? How long have you been still? How long have you been waiting? There is no light in your eyes where is it you stare blankly and empty to? Did you burn out too quickly from your fabulous flames?

Is this on track? Are there any Fi-users out there that can verify or elaborate?

sometimes I wonder if I’m the friend that nobody likes in the friend group

I want to continue to believe, as hard as I can.  When it all seems so bleak and the world has proven too much I hope to still have my imagination The places where no one can reach me Places that I have a thousand names for and a thousand places with no names The sky is the sea within the world of connection Millions and millions of bright sporadic lights Flying on invisible lines This is my place, inside my head Where i have tea with my demons and death fights with my angels I can swim within space and reality has no meaning I can fly under the ground and along the clouds wings My mind is my area, free of any plagues and insecurities My mind is where i can unfold the world, see the right, the wrong, and the gray My Human Mind

When i see people hold hands and watch each other Is that what it is?  The electricity and fire that seems to be unstoppable Is that what the world sees? Acceptance Peace Joy Love  Passion Heat and Serendipity  Entangled in my confusion of Love and Hatred