#infinityever

^/////^ NNNNnnnnn *overloads*

"…Did you just kill her? ..Oh..no..wait, she’s okay…Darn."

//I HEARD THAT YOU LITTLE SH-

Looking out the window, and feeling the cold rush of this winter, I can only remember our plans for the winter that we made months ago. The Christmas movies marathon. Hot chocolate under the blankets.. Now all I'm left with are songs and a fantasy.

As I close my eyes, I imagine a cold Saturday in the middle of December. We're alone in your house at 8 in the morning. You always had a tendency to make me come over as early as possible whenever I was able to come over. You open the door with a bedhead and a smile. My heart is at ease as I see that sly stinky-breath smile of yours. I don't care what you may look like, but I still kiss you good morning.

As I wait for you to freshen up, I make a simple breakfast for both of us and sit in front of the T.V. I can hear you come down and hide next to the stairs to scare the crap out of you. Once you've come down, you catch me as I try to scare you and you end up scaring me. We laugh for a few seconds and finish the cereal, cause that's all I can make. You turn on Netflix and we sit under your cartoon-type blanket to watch Polar Express. You make hot chocolate and we just sit there enjoying the movie and the company of each other.

As the movie ends, you tell me there are chores to be done and so I should just play on the computer while you clean. I ask to help but you smile and gently kiss me on my forehead and lead me to your room, where the computer is. I sit there for the next hour lost in a daze of the cartoon I'm watching and I don't notice that you've been passing by multiple times just laughing at how childish i am for laughing at such a silly cartoon. You knew I could get a laugh from such the littlest things. I change the cartoon and drown myself in songs that we sent to each other and sway back and forth from the beat of the music. You hug me gently from behind while my eyes are closed and kiss my cheek. You then sit next to me and watch my cartoons with me. After a while we're both sleepy and the day was almost over at 7 at night. I guess we didn't realize how much time we took while messing around on the internet. Since I'm able to sleep over that night, we decide to just lay in bed for hours gazing at the eyes of our lover until we'd knock out. I can feel the calmness of your breath, but the nervousness in your heart when I lay my head on your chest and your arms go across my stomach. I can feel the smile on your face when you know I'm getting drowsy. And the best part is, there was no sexual tension. No craving for what people would do if they were given two days alone with their significant other. It was just, love.

That is my fantasy. That is what gets me through my sleep at night. Though I will never be able to have this, it makes me happy knowing You gave me a sense of protection at one point in time where I'm able to even come up with such a thing. I guess it's because we were once so close to having a day like this.. with the exception of your sisters. I still enjoyed every minute I had with you on those days. March 30th, April 6th, June 1st, June 16th, July 28th, October 12th. Those days that I was over, time didn't matter. People didn't matter. Only you did. Actually, wherever we went, I couldn't take my eyes off anyone but you. I was and still am mesmerized by your eyes. They look ordinary to everyone else, but to me, they're special. I can always see a light twinkle in them. The chink would show when you're especially happy. I saw that spark the day you told me you loved me just as much as i'd love you. I miss you. Can this not be a fantasy anymore?

Lenmypenis