#important talk

(if you are interested please read)

(Also how to see the old version of the comic at the end)

I've received a few comments about the updates I'm making to Spamtenna Undoomed, and I want to make something very clear:

This is not an artstyle change.

I don't know if many (or any) of you will care that much but it's important to me and I need to talk about it.

How it started

The very first part was only a cute idea I had.

I made a rough sketch of it, the background was still grey and I didn't put much effort in it.

And it was ok since it should have ended there.

People seemed to like it and want the story to continue. I didn't get this much traction on my account since the TF2 days, so I was exited to keep it going.

I made part 2, then people asked for more so I made part 3 etc...

Making things like this was easy but it came with problems:

Two problems actually: the quality and the writing.

I didn't intend on continuing the story so I wrote it as I went, I still feel like it ended up ok but some parts could have been better refined.

I made them very quickly to give you a new part as soon as I could, and I regret doing this. The quality of the drawings are very poor.

Some parts are very rough, the background is the default color, the colors are desaturated some sentences are missing words its all over the place.

(I'm blaming myself for this to be clear)

Why the updates ?

I'm really unhappy with the state of the comic right now.

I see all the other popular comics and also my other art in general and I really don't like how the comic looks.

It's something I really didn't put enough effort in.

So I'm re-doing them how I should have done them from the begining.

I hate that most people know me for a half assed comic when I'm capable of so much more...

But I also know how much you like the silly expressions I made, and i am keeping them !

I'm keeping everything as it was, just putting more effort in it like I should have from the beginning.

The response

Someone told me it wasn't a good idea, that I shouldn't bother...

And, even though they didn't quite understand why I was doing this, it still hurt me a little.

I like that you all seem to like the comic even when it looks like a 3 year old's drawing. But the updates either have no response (which I get, you already read the comic it make sense) or people telling me they preferred the original version...

I'm not blaming anyone, I should have made them better from the start.

I just want to put a project out there I can look back on.

And it came to the point I can't continue it if I don't fix it first.

Again I 'm not blaming anyone, I just wanted to make sure you all knew why I was doing this and how important it is to me.

How to see the old version ?

If you go to the reblog list on any of the comic parts and scroll down to see the reblog I made (there should only be one) every reblog before this one should have the old versions of the comic.

Media

Now this doesn’t go for all media and I think that some shows do it really well but there’s this common thing in media that I always see. Low self esteem. Most the time a character who is depressed or struggling with suicidal ideations

I won’t deny that’s realistic but I think that it’s really 2D for a character who struggles with mental health to only have that one issue

You don’t have to have low self esteem to be depressed. Theres so many causes for depression and mental issues and half of them don’t even have to relate to self image. Yet media is constantly showing us characters who are depressed because they hate themselves or hate how they look or things like that.

When I look to media I really love when writers can give these characters well thought out plots or do something unexpected.

Showing a character who has so much self love yet still struggle with these issues of depression and mental health makes a character so interesting because it gives it almost irony. It challenges a reader’s view and thoughts about mental illness and shows that there can be more causes.

I think there’s a whole untouched world when it comes to mental illness in media and that writers should really look deep into these untouched path’s.

Another thing I have a peeve with is how certain mental illnesses are shown in media

Writers tend to have this problem with making a characters mental health their entire personality which I think is completely wrong when writing characters. Instead of being the characters main plot it should instead be an accessory unless your piece of media is focused on that mental illness.

It should help develop the plot and be a stepping stone for the main character or maybe just another thing that can occasionally add something

I hate how media makes it seem like it’s impossible to live with mental illness or how it’s just a struggle

Instead it’s like the process of art. Some parts are bad and some parts are good and it comes together to make this one beautiful art piece that goes in someone’s gallery. It’s not a tool and it’s not entirely a disability it’s just apart of who you are not who you are entirely but a piece of you.

It makes a characters character so much stronger by showing this grey area of mental illness and gives them so much more depth.

Real Life

I’ve been to mental hospitals before and I’ve been hospitalized many times for my mental health. Yet every single time I get the same solutions and the same questions.

“Do you hate yourself?” “Try focusing on your self love” “do you hate your body? Is it because of your self image?” “Tell yourself you’re beautiful”

While I believe these things are all so helpful they’re not the solution to every problem.

Personally my self image isn’t something I struggle with much. I love my body, my face, my personality, my sexuality, and my gender. I’ve come to love and accept myself for my struggles and my strengths.

Yet I still struggle with suicide and mental issues.

It’s hard explaining to people over and over that I’m not humble I don’t hate myself I really do love myself to maybe a narcissistic point. Yet our society is stuck on this image that teenagers who are suicidal or depressed are either overdramatic or are just emo and hate themselves.

They look over the true core issues and make automatic assumptions based on preconceived notions that has been drilled into our developing minds. It follows this toxic masculinity culture and a need for people to constantly get better or try to overcome.

Some mental illnesses can never truly be cured and even with medicine you can still struggle. Anxiety, depression, mania, and all those things can still happen even while on very effective meds

Yet they push this belief that you have to deny what you are and try to be better then it instead of accepting it and adapting it into your life.

It makes it harder for people who have extreme disorders such as bipolar, BPD, OCD, ADHD, ADD, Schizophrenia, etc. to live normal lives

You almost have to alienate yourself for these disorders you have.

But that’s just not true. as I said earlier in the media portion of this rant your mental health is just another piece of you that you should come to love and accept. It’s something that you can live with and adapt your life too. People who don’t have these things can’t understand that because they haven’t experienced that.

That’s why it’s important for people with conditions and disabilities to speak up and talk about their experiences.

I’m a time where censorship is prevalent and the world is seeming to blend into the same blonde eye blue hair trend where everyone should be white and live in the suburbs it’s important to show that being different is okay. Because we are all human. We all deserve love and to have happy and normal lives. We all deserve to feel free and respected while showing who we are with pride.

This may mean nothing to you but simply if you agree maybe give this a reblog and send this to someone who might need it

Your mental health is important so speak up and tell your story.

In case social media will be blocked in Russia I left a link to my telegram channel

Art By: gojio

Background Mini Talk:

This person’s art, get’s reshared, edited alot on instagram or on pinterest well it links you to where it’s being posted to but majority of time reshare with blank credit, i saw it happen once more on instagram for like 1billionth time and i decided to tell the person to please give credit to the artist, to not edit the art itself and add your name on it when it’s not yours at all. they responded back of course to tell me they added the name because they wanted to edit it, if i am correct on what they said then they told me that they do not know the artist at all.

i put in bold a certain statement, because what happens next is that the instagram user either A) blocked me, or B) took down the post, i cannot find them at all nor did i remmeber their odd name at all. Now i am gonna try to find them to see if they did A...cause some do -do this and it’s just disgusting, or they would curse you out if you call them out.