#imjustafan

04.30.23 - Teezo replies to a tweet about his single, 5 O'Clock.

Sooooo, I've been on Tumblr a long time. I can't tell you exactly how many years because I don't really know for sure. I think I joined in around the same time I joined Twitter, which was in 2009. It may not have been that early, but it wasn't long after. I kind of abandoned Tumblr, except for glancing at it every now and then when a friend posted something, or whatever.

I started reading Drarry, gosh, probably 3+ years ago. Actually, I started reading fanfiction with a Dramoine, which was OK, but once I read a few Drarry fics, I was hooked. I'd say by now I've probably read over 500+ fics not including ones that I've re-read because I love them so much, and believe me there are probably a couple hundred of those alone, and I'm getting more everyday if you look at my bookmarks on A03!

So, I thought, I'd come back to Tumblr and try to connect with some of the fanfic authors that I love. I'm not sure how it's going. In fact, I'm finding kind if hard to connect with people at all. I don't think more than 3 people read my posts, tbh... Some have mentioned screaming into the void, well that's what I feel like I'm doing. I try to talk to people. I ask asks, but they get lost, or not responded to, or something. And, lawdy help me, but I'm an impatient person sometimes. That's one of my downfalls, and it hurt me a while back. And, lately due to health, and work issues, I've been extra frustrated with just about anything lately so I went a little crazy at the time with that and some other dumb stuff. That's neither here, nor there. Sometimes my humor is too dark, and too dry, and people don't get when I'm joking, or my jokes are terrible. Whatever.

Regardless, nobody in the community is really talking to me, and I'm thinking of just leaving again, because I really don't have anything to offer. I don't write, or make art, or anything else fabulous. I'm just a fan who loves to read (God I'd love to beta some work, you have NO IDEA) and look at all the great stuff, and wants to gush love all over. So, IDK what to do. I don't want to leave because I don't want to miss out on all the good stuff. But...