#hockeylife #imgoingtobeok #nosurgery (at NYU Langone Hospital for Joint Diseases) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtgpE4wlTXa/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=e1hj97ls4pzp

Sitting on my couch listening to Christmas music while in my pjs #thisfeelsamazing #imgoingtobeok ... #ismelllikegarlic #cookingchicken (at City of Twentynine Palms)

These two. The only ones left. My new normal has begun. Now, I'm a praying momma on my knees for my kids around the world and home. #ilovemyfamily #emptynest #imgoingtobeok

I know that. I read it, I hear it, and I tell people that when they feel insecure. so why don't I believe it or apply it to myself? why aren't I smart enough to take my own advice? drinking lots of water, getting lots of sleep, exercising regularly, and eating healthy meals with a few treats here and there is how I spent my last week. and I felt on top of the world. I had never felt so clean before, inside and out. I started to fall in love with my body. obviously, in one week I didn't drop the 15 lbs I hope to eventually lose, obviously I didn't gain a six pack overnight, obviously my thighs are still chunky and jiggly. but I didn't care. I was looking at the same body but with a clearer vision and a different perspective. but I fell off the wagon and I feel like I'm quickly spiraling downhill and I'm looking at the body I so recently loved and I'm thinking "ew". and I hate that because no one should ever think that about their most prized and valuable possession.