#imdepresed

I know this is stupid, but you know that moment when your sad for no reason then you start remembering times when you were sad. And you remember a passed away relative that you miss so much and just want to hug but can't. Or you remember all the good times you had when you were younger and how much you miss that. Then you get really sad and then you start crying and then you end up on the floor somehow just bawling your eyes out. Then pretty soon you've cried so much you don't know if it's possible to cry anymore but you do lightly anyways. Then when your finally done crying you just curl in a ball in a way and think, for a while. Then you can feel that your eyes are all swollen and can even feel a slight heartbeat in your eyes. And your nose is all clogged and you have to breathe out of your mouth but you can still feel the firey flames licking at the back of your eyes and you figh it back because you don't want to cry anymore and your trying so hard not too. Then you just sit there wanting to die or just sleep for a while, a long while. Then your vision is all blury and you just sit there not knowing what to do anymore.. Ya.. I'm having that moment..