#imaginary connection

 No social media   I wanted a little bit of time with myself and to stay away from the illusion's world or better the internet, This make me understand a lot of things actually and it changes my vision for some details, I was wasting a lot of time posting pictures, sharing stories and surfing other people's profiles ..   In the beginning it was hard and I couldn't support staying away from it, because it was a habit and it was the only way to pick up people's news and know more informations about all, Then, now, I don't have any idea about anyone; and I think that no one knows about me,   Actually, there was some other reasons but I feel free anyway .. It does kill the emotional connection between people, even if it makes us feel that the far people are near, it makes the near ones so far, Everything becomes related to the : last seen, delivred, seen, online, liked, commented, followed, add, typing... I just don't understand what is the meaning of those stuffs, The relatioship between people is related to poke or block,   And the value of someone is how much followers they have or likes they get on their posts; So, I see everyone trying to create buzz and be hyper social ... Then for what? Are they serious? Everyone is trying to share the good things they have and show them,  but not everyone is understanding it the same way cause maybe they have lack of something you have, and sometimes you are the one that have it .

  After that also, I realise that I don't have friends in real life, because if you're just chatting with them on social networks, and they're just sending words full of feelings you can receive and sometimes you can feel too; this is not the point, cause we don't need words we need actions; and when you cut the rope between this imaginary connection full of words you realise how much you're alone, you understand that you need a physical presence like touches, body language, looks, voice tone, hugs, warmth ...   And I know that sometimes it is only our refuge to escape from the reality, but it makes us forget our humanity and sens; thus, we start considerating peoples like machines, websites or tabs .. We start ignoring them and cancelling them, like we're playing or checking some internet pages,   Not even our relationships, but all our lives become related to this: Food, clothes, places, even the time that we waste ..   We can't control this, it is deeper than we think, so we just choose to do what everyone else is doing; -for example sometimes you comment "hhhh" but you didn't have any reaction and you didn't even laugh-   Finally, we are controled by where we live and when ? this is the situation.

Although, I wrote this but I will reactivate my social media, Cause in the end I am sharing it in one of it.