#im sorry everyone...

Sorry I've been gone for some time.

A lot has happened to me in a short period of time.

[Unspecified TW underneath-i think you would figure it out though])

Hahaha... hiii...

I'm sorry what's about to come on New Years...

Woke up this morning.

Already didn't want to do anything or get out of bed.

Decide to get up.

Get ready for the day and go about my morning tasks.

Seems like any old day.

Except...

Something's wrong.

It's quiet.

Too quiet.

More specifically...

Someone's too quiet.

I go to find them.

Opening the door, I see them...

Stiff...

Cold...

Motionless...

Gone...

I held them close as tears fell down my face.

But no one notices at first.

I couldn't let out an audible sob.

So at first, no one came to help.

They were gone.

Someone I cared so much about.

Gone...

Slipped away through the night...

Taken away when I least expected...

My dear friend...

It didn't take long for anyone else to notice an absence.

I was pushed aside.

They were taken from my arms.

I was left alone...

Left behind...

I didn't have the strength to argue...

Almost couldn't move.

But...

I have to get up.

Have to continue on my day.

No one around me will know what has happened.

I'm not eating.

I just can't.

I don't even want to talk to anyone.

It's not like anyone will bat an eye.

That's already how I am...

It's all too much...

Death keeps following me...

But I'm never the one taken.

It should have been me.

They didn't deserve this...

It should have been me.

It

Should

Have

Been

Me.