#ilmi

maybe i’m supposed to be looking at this with shoujo eyes and therefore just think those things are romantic, but i don’t have those eyes anymore. all i can think is would he act this way if it was minu and not ilmi? I think huiseung likes both ilmi and chaeri, but decided he wants to move on from ilmi and therefore is trying to be less involved in their friendship.

I first met Harry when I was eight. We would become fast friends, he and I, brought together by how many hard times he held my hand through, as a kid. The parties I wasn’t invited to. The spikes of jealousy I irrationally felt watching my sisters live a completely different life to me, even while we slept in the same bedroom. The scars that would come to mark my hips and knees, summers spent in surgery rather than the swimming pools I longed to be submerged in. Honestly, there are so many times I leaned through those pages, for comfort I’ve lost count. The books became a well-worn sweater, the characters transformed into my friends more than the real-life people who moved around me. My love for Harry is baked into those hyperspecific moments of identity formation that happen the first time a kid finds something that really makes them feel a little less lonely.

And yet, the woman who wrote them, who I strived to emulate as I tried to cast my own versions of the spells she did, is no longer a hero. She can’t be. She doesn’t believe in everyone’s right to be who they are, and I do. It’s as simple as that. I can’t undo my love for the characters she created on the page or on the screen. I can’t take away the comfort that the books or films bring me, and I won’t apologise for the fact that they do. And yet, I won’t buy another book with her name on it or go to the cinema and watch a new film she’s created. That much, I can do so I will.

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Bazı alimler de derler ki; ‘Allah’ın kitabı’ yaradılış ile ilgilidir, Allah’ın bilinmesini istediklerini, zuhuratı bildirdiği kitaptır. O halde tabi ki ‘B’ ile başlayacaktır. Çünkü ‘A’nın bilgisi Allah’ın indindedir, gaybdır, sırlıdır. Gaybı hakkıyla bilen ancak Allah’tır. ‘A’ batındır(görünmeyen). Onun için aşikar olmasını istediklerini, (belli bir noktadan itibaren) yaradılışın, varoluşun…