#ill-advised

someone remind that little man he has a broken hand!!!!!!!!!

not to be incredibly bitter but i am tired of the thing where i tentatively enter another Queer All-Inclusive Very Woke Everyone Welcome Come Make Friends!! Space and then find out that i am the only poc that ever shows up

feelin' icky

a guy who i briefly dated ~three years ago and who gave me the “just not really looking for a relationship” talk at the end of it ended up getting together shortly thereafter with someone i occasionally work with, and so now i see them both at work-related social events. they moved in together. all goofy smiles. two canadian white twinks who came out to accepting families as teenagers and have nothing but bright futures ahead of them. they’re fucking adorable. i’m pretty sure it wouldn’t have worked out even if he had wanted to keep dating me but... oh my god, the heavy, heavy sinking feeling at seeing better-adjusted people move on with their lives while i’m still fucking stuck where i was five years ago. years of therapy and medication and concerted effort for the tiniest, most incremental progress. i can’t even feel happy for other gay couples anymore. i don’t like that. definitely not an attractive trait.