i just weighed myself and fuck
im down from 111 to 102lbs.... and im really getting scared i might have cancer again.
ive been really paranoid about it ever since i had my mastectomy a couple years ago and my surgeon told me "now just because we got that out, doesn't mean it wont come back" and i was just like ????????????????
and ive been feeling kinda the same as when i was fighting it. lately ive been (more than usual) lethargic and fatigued from even the lightest bit of activity. if i stand up too long i get light headed and dizzy. i dont have much of an appetite, but when i do i can only manage to take a few bites before i feel sick.
fuck fuck fuck
WHY
not to mention the fact im already in a bunch of debt to the hospital (~25k i think ugh) for my original treatment. now i might have to pay (rather, owe) MORE money just to *checks notes* stay alive
fuck
i just want to lie back down and cry myself back to sleep
