#ifeelsuicidal

#boysaresuicidal2

I’m completely fine I swear

#boysaresuicidal2

I want to stop but I can’t

#hatemyself-lovecats

In a heartbeat..

#boysaresuicidal2

Would u still believe me?

#2016lifenotes

Been a rough evening. My mood went bad when my son said he didn’t want steaks for dinner. I wanted to make something special. On came the anger. It ruined my night. Fortunately a movie called “Man Up” helped. I cried. I feel a little better. I need to cry more.

I need to cry for the life that has been stolen from the young version of me. At CSU I was taught to carry thru and protect all versions and ages of me. It makes me sad that young me’s dreams are broken. It makes me sad that middle me was ruthlessly treated and cheated on by my now ex wife. I’m sad. I started to feel suicidal but I pushed those thoughts aside as I have to protect the young and middle me.

#surejan-jpeg

One of my exes truly believed that if you pretended to be happy long enough, you would be. “Synthetic happiness,” he said. 

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#playygroundeyes

Ten facts about me

1: I am real 2: I am valid 3: I am suicidal 4: I have been abusive in the past, but I an still a good person 5: I cry sometimes and it’s okay 6: I’m really really lonely 7: The words of those who despise me do not define me 8: I try really hard to make everyone happy and to make them stay, but it doesn’t seem to work 9: I want to be happy 10: I’m not something that can be easily cared about

#ghassan-basile

#SophiaLoren #PeterSellers #Millionairess #GeorgeBernardShaw #love #italian #indian #doctor #relationship #comedy #romance

The comedy song “Goodness Gracious Me” was recorded by Peter Sellers and Sophia Loren, and was a top 5 U.K. single in 1960.

Quote:

- Dr. Ahmed el Kabir: Hello, good day for a swim! - Epifania Parerga: I am not swimming, I am committing suicide - Dr. Ahmed el Kabir: Very good - Epifania Parerga: You don’t understand, I’m killing myself - Dr. Ahmed el Kabir: Well, it is our common destiny, good day

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