#ierno

i'm just. . .really, really tired. of everything. and yeah, maybe once summer comes, i'll be slightly better. but then, maybe not, cause loneliness just kills.

sometimes i think, i'm not meant to really be happy. like, seriously, i've done so much terrible things and i've caused so much pain, and yeah, i forever will believe everything's my fault. and because of that, maybe i'm not meant to be happy.

or maybe, maybe i cant be happy. like it's seriously impossible for me to be happy.  and no matter how much i wish i could, maybe i just cant.