#ienonsense

I’m not family friendly.

Reasons To Leave: -When they stop laughing at your jokes -When they act like comforting you is a chore -When staying is too heavy for you -When staying is too heavy for them -When you stop holding hands -When they won't look you in the eye -When they sleep with their back towards you -When they sleep in a different room -When "I love you" starts to hurt -When you are afraid to ask them things -When you dread a text from them -When they dig at your soft spots; your insecurities -When their mouth tastes like someone else -When you wish they tasted like someone else -When your sheets smell like somebody else -When they don't kiss you good-morning -When they don't kiss you good-night -When they won't kiss you at all

I've only ever known happiness in forms of you. I'd never recognize it in someone new.

Then I saw her kiss you on those lips that I wished I could taste. Yeah, it hurt like a knife to the chest. I always thought your smile was to die for, just not like that.

The past four months without you have gone by faster than I thought they would. I hope the next four are just the same, just with a little more snow.

I let you into my chest. Just because you're gone, doesn't mean you'll ever leave.

How to wash off kisses turned to scars. How to drive down roads you once knew without biting through your own cheek. How to make your parents proud. How to repaint old memories like you refurbish old homes you can no longer live in.  How to talk to people when you're use to being silent. How to talk about things you spent so long trying to forget. How to get people to love you back. How to eat. How to sleep. How to take care of plants. How to take care of yourself. How to be better than this.