#idwa

Last year I told my doctor I was experiencing chronic hypotension. She asked me how I knew my blood pressure was low and I said I have a machine at home and once I have salt my symptoms get much better. I thought this was great news, discovering a way to make me feeling better. Instead of looking into it and testing why a female in her 20s who was perfectly healthy a year ago is experienced this, she just told me to continue having salt. And that is the disabled life.

The most difficult part of the day for me is going to sleep, because I can’t distract myself from the pain. I can feel all of it. The pain comes at me from every corner, making the idea of relaxation too foreign to achieve. It’s quite ironic really. I’m sleepy all day, but when it’s time for bed I can’t sleep.

At this point, I will trigger my chronic pain rather than ask for help from my family.

Okay my iron deficiency (with or without anaemia because doctor are out here discriminating) take your vitamin C, please, please, please. It will help with constipation, absorption and breaking down of the iron in the body. And please don’t skip pills. You need them.