#idk rambles

I see everyone's "Simon attacks Grace upon first contact" scenarios and present you an alternative of "Simon cowers in a corner with a knife instead of outright attempting murder because he's terrified that this might be real and if it is he could hurt his first human contact and drive them away from him"

fjord and jester's communication is literally so beautiful... im always so surprised and moved by fjord's ability to say the right thing to allow her space to open up, to prompt her without prying, the way he's always silently saying 'i'm here if you need me.' completely knowing she has emotional depth but also that her cheerful and silly disposition isn't just some lie or mask. her demeanor is who she is and it's not mutually exclusive with having deep thoughts and difficult feelings. idk he just gives her so much space to be a whole person from the very beginning where i think the rest of tmn can view her a little one-dimensionally. he's also so intuitive and knows exactly when to shift the conversation to something light or funny, which is a skill they share, so they both understand and don't need to minimize it as pure deflection.

it always gets me that Jeff didn't even try to defend himself when he got killed, he had no defensive wounds at all, he just let it happen...and also said a while before his death: "if I was killed in prison right now, that would be a blessing", there's also an irony in the way he was killed with a barbell like he hit his first victim, Steven Hicks with too

the eyes , chico, they never lie

Imagine Mike having to kill “Will” in season 5. Like how in season 3 they showed like upside down dopple gangers are like a thing and then never addressed it again. What if Mike had to kill the Upside Down version of Will and he acts like Will and begs him like no I’m your best friend I love you something something (or vice versa?)

it’s like I’m such a soft person but then when I’ve experienced that ppl reject my vulnerability I can turn into a kinda cold person to protect myself and then sometimes it escalates a situation more which I take accountability for. But idk I think it’s a weird balance to navigate between my softness and toughness bc when ppl reject my vulnerability I feel unsafe and my reaction is to be tough even tho it would benefit the situation more if i was vulnerable. BUT what if they(as I know they’ve done before) reject my vulnerability, then what ??? Then I’m the fool with a broken heart bc I trusted them when I shouldn’t have UGH