#icobm

This is what say , "ya esta" its going to be different and that imma change bla blah bla y.. Nada ..pues que ago , me ago loca and waste my time and the odacity of expecting other to show me that they value my time.. I tell you im not constant and i fail. But its a type of life that i dont understand or can comprehend , i think and i try but why seems to be the end result which i struggle with y es lo que yo quiero.. Ay la vida miserable de una alma herida es la vida de esta malquerida y ya esta..

Love Jexika

Blkjcks, born, Akeem Jackson is a Music Producer, Photographer, and Music Engineer from the Northside of Houston, TX. Blkjckx, a young innovated artist has been influenced by music since an early age and has built the skills that have landed him a place in the Houston iStandard Producer Showcase winners’ circle. Check out his interview by DJ MST BKR http://istandardproducers.com/blkjckx-interview/. Not only did he earn his place in the iStandard winners’ circle but Blkjcks is now setting the foundation for his music career and getting noticed by reputable music producers, like !LLMIND, who he considers a great mentor. You can hear his beat catalog on social media (links provided below) and get to know Blkjckx’s sound. Where you can notice that he is driven by the sounds of such great influences such as, J Dilla, !LLMIND, WonderGurl, Kaytranada, and Kayne West to name a few. His vision to set a name for himself not only as a music producer in the US but to set a name for himself all over the world, has no limits to how far his dreams and passion can go! Networking with different artist and teaming up with ICOBM Music an up and coming independent music company can only be a mere glimpse of a great music producer. Get to know Blkjckx… Soundcloud: https://www.soundcloud.com/blkjckx Bandcamp: https://blackjackx.bandcamp.com/ Beatstars: https://www.beatstars.com/blkjckx Twitter: @blkjckx IG: @blkjckx Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/blkjckx

What do I mean by being accepted? I don’t mean being the most popular kid at school. Being accepted is wanting to be apart of something. Anything even. I know for a fact I did things that weren’t like me at all just because I didn’t want to be alone. I wanted to be apart of something. But is being apart of something really that important? This want that we have confused as a need to be accepted can drive us to do some things that we probably wouldn’t do. I know I have done some things and when I look back on the times I did stuff I know I had no business doing, I felt ashamed of myself. I felt like a complete idiot. But I wasn’t in my right mind; I had driven myself to madness and immorality because I didn’t want to be alone. But if you think about it, many of us fear being alone. In both senses, being alone literally like you are sitting all by yourself in your house while your “friends” are out partying and participating in illegal and unhealthy activities or actually being alone, like having no one to talk to or go to. But even in both of these situations, for those who are saved, we always have someone we can go to. God many not be a human being, but HE is listening, and in seeking HIM, you will find peace and not feel alone. But even so, the Lord has sent people to us, friends. But then and again, how are we able to tell if the people around us are friends? This is not as easy as it seems, even for the most observant person. Being alone isn’t always as bad as it seems, in being alone, you may be able to find other people to hang out with, or you can find something healthier to do than going out and getting fall-down drunk on the weekends. But at the same time, is it better to be accepted and do things that aren’t good for you or don’t care for or like or be alone but still be able to enjoy yourself? Now clearly this isn’t always the easiest thing to think about and most of the time, we tend to choose to be accepted and go do whatever large groups of people are doing. But once we figure out that being alone is still better than destroying ourselves for the sake of not being alone we tend to feel unsure of ourselves and we also tend to feel ashamed of ourselves.

Being wanted is something we all yearn. Few and far between you will find a person who does not care if they are not wanted. But being accepted is something we all strive to do. It is a natural thing to conform. What is uncommon then becomes common and the cycle continues. But is being accepted everything? Clearly it isn’t because many of us have found no happiness in conformity. Being an “individual” means many different things, but there is one defining thing that determines a true individual. Confidence. Confidence is different in every human and is expressed in a different way. But confidence says that stereotypes cannot describe you, societal standards cannot define you; you are your own person regardless of shared values or activities with other people. People know you as you, not one of “those” girls or one of “those” boys or a “typical” type of person. But we all struggle with being a true individual. We can have specific types of friends and still be an individual. But it can be hard to do that sometimes when we don’t know who we are, or if we have lost our identity. And losing your identity can happen easily when we get caught up in wanting to be accepted.

Everyone has his or her wants. I’ve had my wants, but the difference between wants and needs are that wants can drive you to complete madness. I for one, have experienced it, and am constantly avoiding being driven to complete madness. Most of the world population wishes to be accepted, loved, and wanted. But at a young age, it’s hard for us to understand what it means to be loved, so we mistake being wanted for being loved, or we mistake being accepted as being loved. But the question we have to answer first is, what is love?