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Ugh time is of the essence so they say,, but ugh this time is not working for me any more. Normally i like to look up the word that is on my brain and bring it to light with what im feeling, going through or so forth to get it out my head and vent..

So.. google states.. Time is the indefinite continued progress of existence and events that occur in apparently irreversible succesion from the past through the present to the future. So I wonder, how does it relate the aspect of growing out and growing into a new existence and event of the progress, so is growth an indefinite continium of the progress of time. Can it be, growth is determined by our experiences and the decision to grow is held in control by the individual passing through the experiences.

Well, to bring this topic up, for me,time never seems to be on my side when I search for the, "right time." I have touched on the subject before on a previous blog about when is the right, "time to shine." Where I can see now, looking back and recalling the experience, that I decided to growout of the negative aspects of the experience I was going through. Where it gets me to start thinking about how time relates to growth,experiences and an individual. I can say that the existance can be of that of a person or an individual, that growth is the progress and the events are experiences. So the growth is the progress of individuals experiences that go through time, right?!?! I can get very technical and break it down in scientific aspects but i rather keep it at this level, this level that Im at right now.

I have always asked when is the right time to go through experiences in my life and i have looked for right experiences to go through in time, not really paying any attention to when the experience and when the time is in progress. Only, to then, start to look at my past and learn by what i have written in the form of music, notes, post,blogs, or journal entries to find it as answers, of when I went through it. Having the dreadful proof that I have been growing into experiences of what my situation is at this moment, sitting down and trying to figuer out why "the time" is never right for me. Which brings me to this moment that has been filled with growth experiences that i have recently gone through. Of having to ackowledge that I have been searching for the right time for almost everything that I hope to achieve in life and that I have let my experiences determine the events in my life that placed my thoughts of growing into a set time and continued to repeat it selft in my past, my present and my future, well that is until now.Coming to the realization that all this time, literately, the main focus has been "the time" during my experiences and the decision of the direction of my growth but time has never been thought of as simple part of every experience my thoughts go through and determine the progress of indifinite growth of my experiences in time. So could it be that the thought of time should not be what determines, if ,it is the right time to experience growth that the thought of the right growth should be what determines the right experience at that time, which by definition eventfully therefore it becomes the past, the present and the furture.

Kinda funny now to place time in a different aspect which to make my point i would like to realate to that saying everyone always says, "time is money," well then money is of value, there it is understood that time is a value given by money.Since it has been stated that time is value and based on the google definite of time I can say that the value set on experiences, on growth, and on thoughts, right. I dont think it really was to be considered that money is time and time is money. No one can ever say that money is an event they go through or money is the progress of an experience nor that time wasted is lost or that the time not earned meant time had no value or has decreased in value. Furthermore that money lost the experiences and that time earned minutes. So, no.. "time is not money" well at least, not in this matter. heheheh :)

So, with that said, I finalize my time dilemma, I would like to leave on a final note and say that time is of value. Though I would like to think it is of value to the experiences and to the growth that it should be an abundant aspect to provide a growing progress to the events that sets our existance, expereinced by our thoughts passing through time that has set our past, continue to set our present and will indifinately set our future.

Oh... so, now i can see, "time is time."

OK, I will start of with a question. Why is it when you say the truth to a person you no longer want ties with, they assume you are a B*%$#? “I just don’t get it."

I mean when a relationship is no longer working why stay and lie and pretend that you like that person, no matter how much you or that person have done to keep the relationship going. Wouldn’t it be the opposite, that if you stay you are being a B*%$#  because you start to be fake and pretend that you still want to keep ties with that person. I don’t really want to get into details but I’m just so caught of guard as to why this happens. I’m not going to lie, when a certain person broke ties with me I did it, but now that am going through it, it does not make sense. When a person does not want to be part of an unhealthy relationship why should it be forced and why insult each other when ties are broken. I would like to think that there are different aspects to a relationship, it could be love, friendship,business, networking, social, civil, etc. So why not look at the aspect that did not work in the relationship and just don’t force that aspect and try to work on the other meaningful aspects. I mean if its for a greater benefit. I’m just saying! There’s no need to insult or call each other names, just be honest , accept it and if all those other aspects don’t mean a benefit, then walk away with respect. 

I just started my new venture of starting my career as an independent songwriter. Wish me luck!