#icantremembertoforgetyou

Each day it becomes easier to hear old songs; melodies that ooze memories of us and Umi and pool and sleepovers where we talked all night and the Parlotones and our little games which meant so much then. I've realized that's all i was good for and now you don't need me anymore. i guess i just have to accept that i was just temporary... i think i knew it all along, i knew more than i care to admit. I was in denial i suppose. i was blinded with hope ... the hope that if i did enough for you then maybe, just maybe you'd decide to stay. i remember when you were possessive of me. when you begged me not to go. when i swore not to get tattoos for you. but when i became possessive then you decided that i was too much to handle. i don't wanna dwell anymore. i know i wont contact you again. but i can write about you, as much as i like... until one day i wont anymore.

How can you expect me to just forget you when you've given me so much to remember? sometimes, in the dark, in my dreams, i yearn for our friendship way back when we promised to always be sisters. but you know that, don't you? you said it yourself...my greatest fear...being unwanted. being forgotten.