#i'm not ready...

My grandma is going to be moving back in to 'her' house in the next day or two. We've been here the last 14 years by ourselves my mom and I, and shit's going to get real annoying real fast with the TV blaring, her on the phone 24/7 (ugh) and her introducing two dogs to Tony that he's never met before.

I think I'll try to break out of the loop of game/mobile game, reddit, world news bs, and other distractions you formed due to feeling like a zombie 24/7 due to a 'mystery' illness nobody can figure out and just.. try to enjoy myself in ways I haven't been able to before. I know she has high hopes of her and I 'bonding' and 'exploring the world (yeah her words lol) now that she's 'back home' but I just...

I'm tired of being sick and tired you guys, I am. I wish doctors would listen more.

I don't need this.

I don't want this. But unfortunately I don't have a choice.

A house doesn't make a home. That's what I keep telling mom. We'll have to stand our ground and if shit gets too bad with her and the dogs.. well... I guess we'll find somewhere else to live, and that's the saddest part of all when you have to say something like that about your own grandma.

-sighs-

If you read this, thank you for reading. Truly. I know many might not like these little 'vent' posts of mine. I know the world's going to shit but, even if someone reads/listens, it at least lets me know someone out there cares enough to do so.

Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, truly.