#i'm not okay...

I'm not ready for it...

I had a depressive episode alone, my parents are on a trip, my brother was at work

I started balling

Screaming basically

I saw a video talking about kind things dads could do and it said "was it that hard dad?" I cried.

I love my dad.

I love him so much

But he's getting old..

And he's in pain, he's growing angry, he had stomach issue...

And he can't run or work out anymore... I miss doing things with him..

Well I'm in the middle of crying and my brother begins to unlock the door...

I run into my room..

He knocks and walks in and comforts me... Telling me its okay..

“What the hell’s going on Can someone tell me please? Why I’m switching faster than the channels on tv

I’m black then I’m white NO Something isn’t right My enemy’s invisible I don’t know how to fight” - ECHO by Gumi (Circus-P)