i hate being irritated for no reason, i hate being restless, I hate snapping, I hate being bombarded by a million thoughts screaming inside my head that I'm nothing, that I don't matter that I will always be nothing and a no one .... I hate that I've relapsed with something I'm not proud of, I hate that no matter how many meds I take it doesn't help the darkest days, I hate being exhausted of myself... I just hate this and I wish it would stop.