I don't know how to explain how it feels living in a body with other people. But it really does feel like we're all crammed into an echochamber, there is really nothing we can do about it. This experience is really different for everybody, but when it comes to our bullshit, none of us want to be here or all live in the same body. We see each other as different people and such, it's really fucked to explain, the main gist of it is just that it's bad. Quite bad. Most of the time when it comes to school we all agree to let only one or two of us get in front throughout the six hours we have to attend classes. That is only if there are no fucking involuntary triggers involved, Which usually there isn't. Though it's probably happened before. none of us can fucking remember anything tho and it sucks ass It deadass feels like we're some fucked up science experiment. You know how cruel that would be? I mean, the feeling of never being in the right body matches up perfectly. I hate looking at this horrid body I have to control sometimes. It disgusts me how the human body works sometimes. The face I have to see everyday in the mirror is not my face, this body does not belong to me. This is not who I am. Whenever I have to fucking get in the front. I have to wear normal clothes. I have to wear shit I don't like wearing. I have to act in ways I don't regularly act just to fit in during when I'm out in public. I wish I wasn't apart of this humiliating circus fest. Good grief. And don't get me started on how everybody and I mean everybody I share this goddamn body with. They had their fucking heads bashed open with an axe or something. Because I swear, I can't find their brains, I can't find where their logic comes from. No matter what I say, They will always find a way to defile me. There is a reason why I can't care about what these people do anymore because each, and every attempt of interference always leads to hostility. I don't ever mean to come off as rude, but at the same time. I can't fucking help that the people I have to stand by and hold their goddamn hands every single day annoy me so much. Everyday, everytime, every fucking time when I'm here. When i'm in control. I have the urge to finally rip the skin off this disgusting vile body I am forced to handle. Each layer of skin, torn, torn, torn and torn. I want to brutally tear open these closed wounds, whether they are self-inflicted or not. I need to gouge out these sacks of flesh in this face. These "eyes". Everything, every organ, every aspect. Fucking everything in and out this body makes me feel like vomiting piles. The mere concept of being here is repulsive to me. I hate this shit. I hate having to handle the burden of things I do not even know. I hate having to do things for the others. Things they should've done themselves. I am bound to a fucking organism I do not own, and soon these chains will chop my hands off. Fuck this shit, man.

maybe it's better that i'm at work and can't watch matte actually

it is literally so funny that the biggest chad, the only one who talks, in ace combat started the nier timeline. 2B is out to kill his ass