Jul 14
heaven will what???
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heaven will what???
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old heaven will be mine doodles
I can't stop thinking about her she's taken over my brain
who was your favourite hwbm character outside of the main 3 girls?
Mars. it's always fun to have a Main Character type who doesn't actually get to be the main character. especially when said Main Character type is a brash, fiery girl, aka the best type of Main Character type
tbh im thankful for my cradle's graces, but... π¬ im not going back
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Feels like I finally ended up playing Heaven Will Be Mine at exactly the right time.
Wasn't ready for it when it came out in July 2018. My egg had just cracked that same month, give me a second! I understood nothing. Honestly, I was excited to finally become something. I hadn't been hurt yet.
Wasn't ready for it in July 2019. Was barely out to a dozen people, paperwork on treatment was being done. I had only just barely started getting involved with other queer people. I was far too busy securing the right to stay alive.
Definitely wasn't ready for it in July 2020. Quarantine, and on top of that, I'd just started HRT. Everything was way too stressful and complicated and exciting and hopeless. I mostly just tried to focus on work.
Wasn't ready in July 2021. I'd just registered as fully self-employed. I was working my ass off, learning how to stay afloat. The effects of HRT were still recalibrating my reality, I didn't even understand who I was yet.
Wasn't ready at all in July 2022. Too busy having unsuccessful attempts at dating. Trying to bloom into a person while still living under my father's thumb. Constantly stressed out, fucking up, trying hard to keep it together.
Wasn't ready in July 2023. Was recovering from bottom surgery, way too much on my mind. Felt rejected by the community. Lost many friends. Became more jaded. Needed more time not to be angry about it.
Wasn't ready in July 2024. Just moved out of my dad's place, was finally living alone. Finally had the freedom to actually figure out who I was outside of my father's gravity... But wouldn't be able to comprehend the concept yet. Not enough life experience.
Wasn't quite ready in July 2025. An ex got me through Utena, then dumped me not long after. Took it bad. Felt worthless. Wanted to change... Got really into guitar. Got more involved with my local trans community.
Right now, in July 2026, I feel like I have the exact right breadth of experience to finally appreciate Heaven Will Be Mine. The way we love and hurt eachother. I had to learn pain and become rather cynical. Had to learn how hard it all is. How necessary it is to keep going anyway. The joys and sorrows. Had to learn to want the best for all of us.
I can't imagine communicating with the me from eight years ago, or even three years ago. That person is so far away from who I am... Maybe I've finally grown up, I dunno... I just want us all to be okay. I have to make the right decisions to get us there.
the girls played heaven will be mine
i think heaven will be mine very efficiently planted a fantasy in my brain that i had never even considered. very gentle woman gives you a lap pillow while repeatedly reassuring you that you tried to do the right thing. god