unhinge your jaw, atone your sins.

bone marrow tighten, blades against throats,

and i was begging for a life and a reason

and the monster's deeds being

pinned against me, but i know

he got you too, so i can't take it to close to my heart

strangers it felt, i barely remembered your last name

but now i know it's your choice that'll change the game.

i never asked for this to be a battle, i never wanted to fight,

i didn't want it to end this way,

i don't wanna end up right.

deceit and spirals, obsessions over

something i have had attached to me at the womb, and the monster

detached itself from me, and

im so sorry he found another

host in you.

i cannot feel standing here today, the

things id thought.

his hand being the only blockage from the gap, and

his brown hair in your fists, his once bright eyes dead and your voice, raw

and i know you mean the words you speak from the bottom of your confused heart.

i cannot feel hate, because i know what brought you here today.

i cannot feel pain, because i brought this onto myself.

i cannot feel relief, because i know it is not put to rest with your body

i cannot feel grief, because i have been preparing for this since i saw his face

under streetlights, blue light shining off his teary face, shakey,

and my wrath was hiding my realizations

and i was right.

but as they say im alright. im okay.

i will walk away and let this behind me,

bury the dead, let them rest. let you rest.

after all

i shouldn't have to worry,