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Samās been spending less time in the bunker since curing Dean of being a demon. After unchaining him, he left the dungeon with a look on his face Dean never wants to see again. Deanās seen Sam cry, heās seen Sam completely broken and hurt. But he has never seen this look on Samās face before. Complete and total hopelessness, terror, and heartbreak. Not even after Jessica burned up on that ceiling did Sam look like that.
And Dean put that look there.
Dean broke Sam so totally and completely beyond repair.
He remembers the things he said, as a demon, because he remembers meaning them. But he doesnāt mean them now and he doesnāt know how to fix this.
Castiel had brought him food from the local diner after he was cured, said Sam placed the order and picked it up but couldnāt bring it to Dean himself. Heād told Cas he just needed time, and Dean will give him that, as much as it hurts having his little brother hide from him.
Sam ordered him a cheeseburger extra onion and double French fries, just like he likes, with two slices of apple pie for dessert. Even sad and scared, Sam will always think about Dean above himself.
Heād asked Cas if Sam got himself a salad like the health nerd he is. Cas just gave him a pitying smile, which told Dean everything he needed to know.
Now, almost a week since he was cured, Dean knows Sam hasnāt been eating enough, and that Sam spends a lot of time at the local bar outside Lebanon. Itās a couple steps down from a dive, but it has its share of rowdy drunks, a pool table for some good hustlinā, and bartenders that arenāt scared to kick you out on your ass. Dean would know.
And Sam has been there at least four nights this week.
Itās the fifth night that he hears the creak of the door open and slam shut that alerts Dean to Sam leaving again. Itās just after nine. Dean weighs his options and decides to follow Sam there but remain hidden; heās gotten good at hiding since he got the mark of Cain.
He gives him an hour head start before heading over, driving through the lot to locate the car that Sam seems to take whenever he goes off alone, then parks in the back so Sam canāt find Baby and know that Dean came.
The bartender knows him, lets Dean take up a shadowed corner with a coupleāa beers and hunker down to watch the show.
Sam seems to be two or three beers in; heās swaying on his feet, cheeks flushed and hair a mess like he ran his fingers through it several times in frustration.
And he appears to be hustling, except the little shit is drunk and not just faking it to play the guys heās hustling. If Sam does this every night without backup, Dean is going to kill him.
āCāmon, sweetheart,ā one of the guys slurs, leaning too close to Sam for Deanās liking. Dean never was fond of anyone touching Sam or calling him pet names. Thatās Deanās baby brother and Dean doesnāt play nice when it comes to Sammy. He watches as Sam visibly tenses ā knows whatās making his brother uncomfortable ā and steps back. āOh, donāt be like that, pretty, you know you canāt win this, donāt ya? Iām givinā you an out. Your armās broken, aināt it?ā
āNo,ā Sam replies, bumping the pool table in his haste to put more distance between them, grunting in pain at the contact. āAlready told you⦠I lose anā you take me for all the money I got, or you lose, and I take you for all the money you got ā no more no less. I can beat you, sprained elbow or not.ā
Dean smirks with pride. His brother may be drunk but heās not stupid. Sam can play pool left handed or right handed. They trained themselves over the years how to use both hands in case their dominant hand becomes incapacitated somehow in the middle of a hunt. Always need a contingency plan when your lifeās on the line.
āWeāll see about that,ā the man growls, leering at Sam, eyes roaming his body up and down. That kind of scrutiny would have Dean wanting to shower and scrub himself raw; he canāt imagine how Sammy feels. āItās prudes like you that beg for cock when itās presented to them.ā
That has Dean half standing, anticipating. Heās furious that anyone would say that to Sam. It has Deanās skin crawling and the mark on his arm burning, begging for bloodshed. Dean wants to slit this manās throat for even thinking of Sam that way. He wants to torture him and make him beg for Samās forgiveness.
He wants to bash his face in.
Sam shoves the guyās shoulder and says, āJust play pool, man,ā and Dean sits back down. The game resumes and Dean keeps a watchful eye as Sam fumbles his way through the game, drunk off his ass. Sam accepts drink after drink and Dean knows his little brother isnāt going to win this game with that much alcohol in his system, but heās waiting until Sam actually needs help to step in.
āYouāve been alone for awhile, sugar. You waitinā for someone?ā a smooth womanās voice says from his left. He looks up just as sheās sliding into the seat across from him and blocking his view of Sam and the guys heās hustling. He needs to get her out of here fast.
āIām just enjoying some time alone,ā he replies, not trying to sound rude but wanting her gone.
Her smile is predatory when she asks, āWould you like some company?ā
āIām sorry, darlinā,ā he tries to sound remorseful but misses by a mile as he leans slightly to the right to try to get an eye on Sam.
She must notice heās distracted because she turns her body slightly to the left and cranes her neck to see what Dean is looking at before turning back to him. āThat tall glass of water, huh? Itās always the gorgeous ones,ā she says wistfully with a shake of her head and winks at him as she gets up from her chair. āIf you strike out, Iāll be at the bar, sugar.ā
It had to be less than a minute between the time she looked at Sam and then left the table, but by the time Deanās view cleared, Sam and the guys at the pool table were gone. Dean almost knocked over his chair in his haste to get up and find Sam. It was barely 11, and the past week Sam hadnāt been coming home until well after midnight. Last call was 1:30 but Sam has always been the type to leave well before last call to avoid being āone of those people,ā heād say. His little brother was such a nerd.
Samās a grown man. 32 years old and 6ā4ā, he shouldnāt need Deanās protection, but that will never stop the big brother side of Dean from protecting his little brother. And now, with this mark burning into his arm, Deanās more protective than usual. More agitated, angry. Heās itching to make someone hurt, someone bleed, and if tonight it happens to be some guys Sam beat at pool then so be it.
He bypasses the pool table they were hanging at -- theĀ drink Sam had been drinking rests on the edge of the table, condensation leaving a ring on the lacquered wood finish -- and heads for the hall leading to the bathroom. He stops at the sound of voices in the middle of an argument.
āI told you, nothing more nothing less,ā Samās voice carries down the hallway and Dean waits, wanting to give Sam the benefit of the doubt. He didnāt see how many of the guys followed but even inebriated he knows Sam can hold his own. Itās just the protective part inside him that wants to beat this guyās face in for thinking he can get something from Sam.
āI mightāa let you go if you didnāt hustle me anā my boys for all we got,ā the man replies huskily. Thereās a thud and Sam grunts. It sets Deanās teeth on edge and makes his hand twitch for a blade. He peers around the corner and sees that Samās pressed against the wall by the man he was playing when Dean got to the bar, the other two that had been hanging around the pool table watching them play were flanking the two of them. Dean could only make out Samās shaggy head of hair. āNow weāre gonna take it out on your ass for all we lost.ā
Sam tries to shove at the guyās shoulders, says, āJust because I can outplay you in pool with my arm in a sling doesnāt mean I cheated. You just lack skill.ā
Itās Samās smart mouth that Dean both loves and hates. His baby brother can be a huge pain in the ass with his book intelligence, but sometimes he lacks severe street intelligence. He wonders how often this has happened before; heās going to have to have a talk with Sammy after he saves his ass, literally.
He has half a mind to let these guys fuck with Sam a little bit to teach him a lesson; give himself a better excuse to beat them half to death for touching his brother.
He wants to be Samās savior and then punish him accordingly, both for running away from him and for putting himself in deliberate danger.
Heās going to punish Sam regardless.
āGet offāa me!ā Sam shouts, trying to shove harder, but heās outnumbered and while Sam is tall and strong, these guys have more muscle mass on him and they just laugh as Sam struggles against them, his arm in the sling cradled against his chest. He canāt use all his strength because of the damn sling and his hurt elbow.
Being bitten by a vampire while Sam watches crosses his mind and he feels less inclined to jump in just yet, wanting to see how this plays out. Sam had no soul, he reminds himself, but at the same time⦠Dean feels like he doesnāt have a soul right now, too. Just dark thoughts swirling around in his head about his little brother and pain.
āAw, come on, pretty boy,ā another one of the men taunts, gripping Samās chin and turning him to face him. āDonāt be a prude. You look like youāre desperate to get fucked. Just turn around and weāll make you feel good, baby.ā
āNo!ā
Hearing this sleazeball call Sammy ābabyā is enough for Dean. He steps away from hiding just as theyāre turning Sam to face the wall, fiddling with Samās belt buckle as his little brother squirms in their grip.
āLet him go,ā Dean growls.
āMind ya own business, pal.ā
āI said,ā Dean speaks slow, as if talking to a child who broke the rules, āLet,ā he steps closer, āHim go.ā
āDean,ā Sam says, voice quivering both in fear of the men trying to have their way with him and possibly at Dean himself. Sam hasnāt looked Dean in the eye since Dean was cured; heās been ducking out of the bunker before Dean can emerge from his bedroom, or the bathroom. Dean had been longing to catch Sam in the library again, reading a book, happy and comfortable like he used to be. But as far as he knows, Sam stays in his room, or leaves the bunker altogether to run away from Dean.
That stops now.
āItās okay, Sammy,ā Dean says, āIām here.ā
āListen, buddy,ā the man that Sam beat speaks up again, āFind your own bitch, this oneās ours.ā
Despite the burning of the mark, begging for Dean to slit the throats of these men, Dean actually laughs out loud. āYouāre right,ā he shrugs, a smirk growing on his face as he steps closer. āHe is a bitch, but heās my bitch, and Iām not going to let scumbags like you taint him.ā He grabs the hair of the one who had grabbed Samās chin and yanks him away roughly. āIf you donāt want to die today, let him go.ā
āAlright, asshole--ā The first guy releases Sam and lunges at Dean, who slams the guy he has by the hair face first into the wooden wall of the hallway next to the bathroom. He whirls around before the guy reaches him to throw a right hook into his chin, sending him flying back. The third guy releases Sam completely with a shout and lunges, too, but Sam sticks a foot back and trips him so he falls face first.
āLike I said,ā Dean says with finality.
āDean,ā Sam repeats his name, looking at him fully. He still has fear showing in his face but Dean is just glad to hear his voice. āYou--ā
āSammy,ā he says softly, stepping over the man he knocked out with a right hook and pressing Sam back against the wall. He almost backs away when Samās beautiful hazel eyes flash with fear -- the last time he had Sam against a wall, he had a hammer and was going to kill Sam and Sam had a knife to his throat that Dean knew he wouldnāt use on him -- but he doesnāt. He holds his ground. āSammy,ā he repeats, raising a hand to caress his little brotherās alcohol flushed cheek. āI donāt want you doing this anymore.ā
āDean, I- I just needed time and--ā
He doesnāt know why he does it -- actually, thatās a lie because he knows why he does it, heās always wanted to do it -- but he leans in and kisses Sam, effectively quieting him. Sam gasps against his lips and accidentally grants access to Deanās tongue. Dean holds Samās chin with one hand while the other trails downward and grips Samās hip to press it tightly to the wall, keeping him still. His hips follow soon after and press against Samās. Heās careful where they press together so he doesnāt put pressure on Samās hurt arm as he deepens the kiss.
Sam doesnāt fight. His free arm lifts up and he wraps his thin fingers into the collar of Deanās shirt and pulls him closer. Dean smiles into the kiss before pulling away, says softly, āCome back home, Sammy,ā and gives him another chaste kiss.
Sam goes home with him, riding shotgun in the Impala as he should. Theyāll get the car Sam drove tomorrow. Tonight heās going to punish Sam for running away, and then claim him like he should have done all those years ago.

















