I don't know what hurts more. But right now, everything hurts. I thought i was close enough to be trusted with anything at this point...but i can't even be told how your really feeling. And that hurts most of all...

When your eyes hurt from crying so much, that’s when you know how hurt you truly are

So, is anyone able to enlighten me on how much crap one girl can take off of one guy because I'm really getting tired of my own shit. No matter how much I try to get on with my life and move on this guy just keeps coming back giving me false hope telling me he still loves me and misses me bla bla bla, I just don't know why I keep falling for it when I know he's lying and especially his track record for lying. It's like mental torture and you think it's only you going through it and no matter how much you explain it to people around you you think they'll never understand. I really frustrate myself but I guess there's one thing that always remains when you have a break up with someone you adored so much and that's hope, hope that they'll change into that person you met for the very first time, hope that all those broken promises will be mended, hope that maybe just maybe things will work out but the further you step outside the box the more those hopes fade and you start to realize that maybe you are better off without them, after all they did hurt you more than words can describe but then "whack"right out of nowhere he feeds you all the bullshit again because he can see you're happy and you're moving on but instead of doing everything he can to get you back and prove his worth he just tortures you again. I've actually just realised everything I've written I've answered my own questions. I know now I've took all the crap from him that I can bare to take before he drives me mentally deluded. Enough is enough. Anyone out there feeling the same way, man or woman, show him/her your worth that you're worth so much more than being their doormat, make a stand and walk away. Easier said than done I know but the more you give, the more you're going to get hurt.