#hrgh.

I'm just so FRUSTRATED bcz of these fuckass kids running their fucking mouths trying to act all hurt n upset and make it seem like I'm something I am NOT and it's genuinely so fucking irritating and stressful.

I remember talking to you abt that Thing and I think I told you that that was a v big fear of mine and now I feel like everyone is thinking I'm exactly that and I'm just. It's upsetting and v hurtful and I know in my heart I would never do anything like that on purpose or maliciously. And I'm sure anyone here who knows me would tell you they know I wouldn't either.

But now 2 people have basically said it and now I'm just.

Bcz like what if they're right and I'm awful and terrible. Then the only thing left for me to do is die !!! Bcz the types of people they're trying to paint me as deserve to die. So. I should too in that case.

But also I did EVERYTHING right I feel like.

I ASKED him.

He said YES.

Went off and talked to them on HIS OWN FIRST sometimes COMPLETELY unprompted while KNOWING who they were.

But now they're saying I peer pressured him and "made him do it" or smth and I made him "uncomfortable" when he never once said a thing abt being uncomfortable !!!

But no if I say that then I'm "victim-blaming" a 13 year old. It's like they didn't READ A THING I SAID !!!

I was nothing but nice to him the ENTIRE time we talked EVERY time.

Fucking hell he once came to me telling me how scared he was of N/th/n bcz he (N) started talking to him (C) and I fucking rushed back inside and joined N/th/ns discord and sat through a fucking 2+ HOUR CALL WITH HIM AND HIS FRIEND (who later said he was going to rape me btw) AND A 2+ HOUR CALL WITH JUST HIM ALL BY MYSELF telling N/th/n not to talk to him (C) again.

I didn't have to do that at ALL. But I did bcz I fucking cared abt him and wanted him to be safe.

But now I'm a peer pressuring weirdo yayyy...

Well that's a whole lot of bull and shit, because several SDU members got their brains tweaked in the Ch00 straight path including Takumi, and it happened again to Nozomi in the Cult of Takumi route- we know this device was used because of the power cut. In Coming of Age, Eito suggested there needing to be a 'special power up' in order to tweak his brain, so isn't this line here supposed to refer to him??