#howisthisnormal

Today I am 12 weeks. So far my NIPT has come back low risk for trisomy 13, 18 and 21. So far everything has looked good. But I’m still really scared. There could be horrible genetic things going on with this baby we don’t know about. These are my biggest fears. Mind you, I’ve done genetic counseling with E in the past and nothing has come up. I’ve never had a miscarriage. But those previous abnormal embryos still haunt me. One had trisomy 19. I’m scared to death that this baby has it, even though the changes would be very low for the baby to make it to term. Going trough IVF and being a pediatric intensive care nurse has screwed me up. Hopefully one day I will realize I’m having a normal pregnancy with a normal baby. That’s all for now.