#howdothesepeopleexist

This fucking anglophone pissed off about "cunt?" All francophonie swears are various ways of saying "whore" or taking the lord's name in vain.

And it seems to me Romanian has a decent amount of crossover-- as most latin family languages do.

I was in the docky directory at one point as having done so based on literally nothing but this post.

A post where, I didn't even name Eden-- and those adapt at the english language may notice, I was not fakeclaiming them:

I'll be real with you broskis, I am not particularly comfortable talking about my DID online. That's my own cross to bare, yes. But you know like, talking at legnth about shit on the internet you know is a possible avenue for someone to get your goat isn't a fantastic idea.

I'm too stubborn to be super shy about it, I'll answer direct questions, but I'll only really bring it up if I feel especially compelled to.

So with that said--

The degree of absolute malicious intent and utter profound fucking laziness on top of that is pretty fucking naked now.

The "other harassment" they're trying desperately not to name is:

Being friends with Sheev and friendly with Raf

That's it. That's the extent of the list.

I'd include me being snarky about chee not knowing our own fucking country's history, or which world war had nazies in it-- but that happened way later. Way after, since the harassment abruptly stopped, I presumed I was removed from this list. Why I didn't make it into the docky.

[Not that I am at all important to this bullshit. Which is why it's insane to begin with I was ever, like, implicated at all.]

Like this kinda just says it all, doesn't it? This was enough for these fuckers to feel perfectly comfortable of accusing me of "choosing to be miserable."

That post I made about Eden-- I made it because I saw a whole lotta presuming going on about what was an acceptable expectation to have of someone with DID and what wasn't. Eden's friends, to this day, seem to dead set on the narrative that having a dissociative disorder makes you a stupid baby idiot cannot handle even a single shread of personal responsibility.

Just even setting aside that's insane fucking abelism in it of itself weaponized by a gaggle of bad actors so they can use it as a smoke screen--

I am featured in the Google docky, lol.

And, well, it took me a moment or two for it to really click in my head but

Oh boy gents I finally figured out why they insisted this post:

Was fakeclaiming Eden--

You guys are not fucking ready for this level of psychic damage I--

Oh my fucking christ on the cross--

Eden, no. No I didn't know any of this. Because we don't fucking know each other. We've never spoken. Not once. Everything I've learned about you since this started was against my will.

That entire post was prompted by people talking in circles at each other about you faking being drunk on moldly grape juice and literally nothing else. I had a vague idea of what was going on just from Sheev and Britt yapping about it, which no shit I saw, they are my friends, and that's the extent of the fucking context I had.

All that harassment because I tried to be half way respectful that I was publically weighing in on a situation I had no involvement with, so I tried to keep it non-specific and keep names out of the post. Booboo I'm the fool for that one I guess.

I don't even know what fucking CCD is. I keep trying to Google it and all I'm getting is this:

Is that a fucking typo, or--?

And I know there's no fucking point to pointing out again that my post doesn't actually fucking make sense if you interpret it as me fakeclaiming you. Or that I literally said the fucking opposite to dissociation and psychosis being mutually exclusive. I know, I know. You can lead a tumblr user to a post, but you can't make them read. I get it-- it's a fool's errand, but like--

Seriously Eden if you are experiencing BOTH psychosis and dissociative episodes CHRONICALLY you need to talk to a specialist. Like fucking YESTERDAY bud. Unhinged you found a way to interpret this as me """"fakeclaiming"""" you and not genuine concern for your well-being but--

Did you think I just pulled this out of my fucking ass? I know this because when **I** was getting diagnosed with DID **I** had to be assessed for any signs of chronic psychosis to rule it out. And I know YOU have not been properly treated because this would not be new fucking information to you if you were.

Eden, listen to me. This is serious. If you believe you are chronically experiencing both, you NEED to be thoroughly assessed. That is a much more difficult situation to tease out the root cause/causes of your symptoms. And if you cannot tease out the root cause of your symptoms, you're shit out of luck learning how/getting the tools you need to manage them.

Chronic dissociative episodes + psychosis + depression could also indicate something WAY more fucking serious. Like something potentially being *physically* wrong with your brain. Babe that don't bode well. That's a combo you could easily get referred to a *neurologist* for. Probably not, let's fucking hope not, but something that needs to be checked.

You've surrounded yourself with fucking enablers who let you make any sort of absurd excuse for this nonesense and you're now telling me this is potentially dangerous to your health because--

"Gender Critical is a d o g w h i s t l e 👁👄👁" they state confidentiality, freshly stepping out of a time machine that brought them from 2015 to the present day.

Okay, so, apparently one night while Sheev, Raf, and Britt (plus whoever else was there) were shooting the shit-- Eden started pretending to be drunk.

And by "pretending to be drunk"-- I mean in the way a good Mormon boy in middle school who has never eaten a drug or sippied a booze or experienced an adult who does would-- bY tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

Later claiming that it was because they drank moldy, or grape juice that had gone off-- something like that.

You know, that sort of thing that you'd expect a grade schooler you tricked into buying Nutmeg off you would say to explain why they pretended to be high.

Amd basically how Eden's little gaggle of attackbuds was justifying that was like, "oh you just hate eden because they age regress, you just hate eden because they have child alters, they were rapid switching 'tis all" blah blah blah blah. They were assigning a lot of symptoms you could generously describe as potential signs of psychosis to being the result of Eden's DID, totally talking out their asses in that particular weaponized abelist incompetence they typically use to deflect criticism.

It got to the point where sheev was having to explain how fucking fermentation works. I think either sheev or britt checked with me a few times to *make sure* they weren't just being abelist, as is the responsible thing to do-- and yeah. Fucking wild reading that.

Sue me, I guess, misinformation about a disorder *I have* does bother me. So I made a post publically. Made the most luke warm statement ever that, "no typically alters can't rapid switch and remain unaware of each other, yes you can hold the whole system accountable for the actions of one alter, dissociation isn't psychosis."

These are literally just common misconceptions I see about DID in general-- like none of this is a hottake.

Apparently Eden has both psychotic episodes *and* dissociative episodes-- information I was just supposed to magically fucking know as someone who never once interacted with them. [And doesn't even actually change my original grievance-- because they were attributing this behavior to their DID. Didn't even fuckinh bring up Eden's psychosis.

Still fucking misinformation that needed to be corrected.]

But like, someone with *just* DID-- even if it was a child alter pretending to be drunk, like, okay. Say, "sorry I was pretending to be drunk. It was a child alter fronting. I know that was weird. My bad fam. Need to do some system care I think."

Swallow your fucking pride and button your shit up. Completely reasonable. Did not need to be turned into a whole thing.

DID for sure is a disorder where you will find yourself doing/saying really weird shit where, unlike a normal person, you're asking yourself just as much as everyone is asking you why you did/said that. And one of the challenges of learning to live with the disorder is for sure, learn how to do system management and care, etc. Live your life partially by fucking community vote-- and god knows what the other fuckers are getting up to. Yeah.

But it's like that Tumblr post you see floating around sometimes that goes something like, "having IBS doesn't make it acceptable to just shit in the middle of the grocery store."

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Personal side note:

As someone with weird, nutso trauma gremlin child alters, that leave me so vulnerable it's genuinely like-- a concern in my daily life that one will get triggered if I get too stressed (I have to be v e r y s t r e s s e d-- so it's not a common occurrence for me, but.)

It's a bit of a kick to the cunt a bit here. All child alters leave a person kinda vulnerable, for sure. But it seems to me Eden's got some of the more typical child alters.

Not the little feral trauma-holding chaos demons I have.

A brain tumor, alzheimer's, hydrocephalus, a brain cyst, cranial edema, certain types of epilepsy, parasites even--

Like, is it *likely* it's any of these things? I don't think so. But it's enough I feel confident if Eden told their GP, I think they'd get sent for some labs and a CT. Something of that nature. Because it's not *not* a sign of those things. Dissociation, psychosis, and turbulent mood/depression all chronically happening together. And you really wanna check to make sure it's NOT those things, right?

Could also be a bad mix of meds, if Eden is on any of those-- and holy shit you R E A L L Y want to catch that in time. Especially if Eden's on any SSRIs, etc. Dangerous. Like actually.

But I don't know eden's life to really say--

Could be they have a dissociative disorder they are misinterpreting some of the symptoms of a psychosis.

Could be they have a psychotic disorder they are misinterpreting some of the symptoms of as dissociation.

Could be they genuinely have both.

All possibilities are equally likely until Eden gets assessed by a professional properly.

Again, professionals will typically not diagnose a patient with both unless they have a lot of confidence both are happening comorbidly. Because there is a not insignificant amount of overlap. It's not that it's not impossible to have both, it's that this is one of the limitations of current diagnosis procedure.

I don't know, but I'd presume they'd determine someone had both by putting them on anti-psychotics, and monitoring to see if it makes the dissociative episodes lesson too? And if they don't, then they'd have both.

Like speaking even from experience it's hard for even me to tell what's exactly a symptom of my ADHD and what's a symptom of my DID sometimes. And what's kinda both dping me at once.

On that little assessment test they give you so the psychiatrist/therapist can kinda gage what's what-- I actually scored *stupidly* high for DID symptoms pertaining to the sort of memory loss/lack of focus prompts. One of the highest scores my therapist had seen, they said. But that was all before I got put on ADHD meds, and I suspect I'd score a bit lower now.

Genuine question. Why is America being evangelical relavent to this? Just wondering?

Because the majority of the rest of the colonized world, the commonwealth and europe is Catholic majority.

And whether Americans realize it or not, their cultural flavor on their ideas on morality and their profane language *is* influenced by that.

Which is not inherently worse nor better than catholic influence-- up until they go like, "um excuse person from another culture, you are morally wrong and evil actually," over something stupid like the word 'cunt.'

Everyone else is very aware Americans consider the word 'cunt' very very naughty. Somehow more naughtier than the word 'twat' or 'bitch' or 'pussy.'

Like why this urban websters dictionary bullshit nessesary-- thanks cunt, none of us tumblr users has anyway of knowing what a homosexual gay queer lgbtblt trans-fag bitch full of caucasity was before this moment actually thank you for making this bloated mess even harder to read this couldn't have been an email no way.