#honk.text

Some friends and I wanted to make a terror server…

So here it is!

Jfj will try to be progressive or go along with suggestions of polyamory whilst secretly hating the idea so badly of another person getting attention but does he express this? No! Why would he? And reveal how tender his underbelly is? Helllllll nooooo! Grit it and bare it and hope the new partner will only prove how much of a better choice you are

And jopson? Jopson is not into it. And expresses such. Not in the most outright manner but as a suggestion. His stewardly suggestions. “I dont think thatd be best, sir.” When he rlly wants to scream on the outside. His domineering personality shows in those fabrications of subservience. But he might cave anyways if Crozier really does insist because well Captain’s choice at the end of the day (can’t let him know how bad it hurts).

Mutable Earth by Louise Glück

Francis Crozier and James Fitzjames

OH I HAVE THESE SHJSJSKS

We know that for Hickey, Billy is his wife— as mentioned in that passing comment and also proposal (and acceptance) of marriage. But what about Crozier? Who is his Billy?

Billy would be split into two for this instance,

into Jopson and Fitzjames.

Jopson represents the aspect of Billy that is devoted to Hickey, even if she knows (and there’s no way she doesn’t) where the plan is heading and what it means for her. Jopson has stated the men (mostly speaking of himself) are fully behind Crozier and is constantly saying he is there for the man. Billy doesn’t express this openly, but through action it’s clear she’s made her choice. These stewards have bound themselves to death itself through the men they love.

And then Fitzjames? Fitzjames represents the fiery nature of Billy, the one that bites back at Hickey. Fitzjames’ and Crozier’s tumultuous relationship resembled those scenes early on of Hickey and Gibson in their breakup era. Cold, harsh, and able to get under the others skin so easily… not afraid to pull rugs out beneath the other to make them look vulnerable. But that softens in both pairs. When Fitzjames had became Captain— it was like marrying Crozier. When Crozier had asked Fitzjames to attend the meeting where he declared his sobriety, that was marriage. Hickey and Gibson still might have a comment or two made at the other, but their body language becomes mutual somewhat.

And then the deaths. Hickey murdering Gibson was a perverted version of Fitzjames being mercykilled at Crozier’s hand. Hickey, in his mind, felt it was a mercykill but it was missing Gibson’s spoken consent— another way in which Hickey is a perverse Crozier.

—In Jopson’s final moments, he tries to make himself useful— feeling he owes his body to Crozier in the form of labour even still.

—Billy’s body was used for a meal.

—Fitzjames’ boots were used by Hickey.

• Jopson had tried with every remaining strength to make it to be with Crozier, ignoring the mirage food just to be seen and made useful in his last moments.

• Billy was massacred in order to be made into a meal, leaving her body brutalized and bare.

• Fitzjames was supposed to be hidden away from the world in burial, but has been left disturbingly bare.

(There could also be some arguments on adding Tozer to this but alas, brain stupid rn.)