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I feel like I’m living in a Twilight Zone episode... In the past 14 days folks that I hang out regularly (by that I mean at least once a week) at some point didn’t recognize me for a couple of seconds. The first incident was my sister. We were at some place and I walked over to her to tell her something and she thought that I was a complete stranger and got all weird! We both laughed as she told me she thought I was some random ass guy MY OWN SISTER! I laughed it off and for a moment I thought that this was I good thing and I was getting places. 

The second time was when I was at the gym going to meet two friends of mine and neither of them recognized me either! One of them talked about how I’ve changed and I don’t look the same. I know to her she thought this was a compliment but I couldn’t help be feel weird. It was like one of those moments when you’re running faster than your body can handle and you fall flat on your face. 

The last one was this past Friday. I went with a friend of mine to a gay bar to see Sharon Needles perform. I asked him to wait for me outside of the restroom while I went to go pee and I find him staring at me with his mouth open like if he’s wants to say something but is hesitant for a second until I walk closer. When he realizes its me he starts laughing and tells me that he thought I was some random dude! The first two were funny (and this one was too) but I started freaking about badly. I started feeling like I was somehow becoming a whole new person, that would for some reason lose connection with everyone from their past. I am not ready for this. I’m afraid of changing internally, a thought I had thought about while I was questioning my gender years ago. Is it possible that every little thing about me will change the point where I’m no longer me? Will people see me as someone else and lose the friend I was to them before? Will they treat me differently? and what does this all me to who I am inside? If my inner parts are moving as the night before christmas eve in a child’s brain. 

What happens when you ask a woman warriors? Well see for your Self.  

Ms.3 is a very honest person and what comes out of her mouth is but what she feels.  Jay Dee Cruz and Enzo Onze have a chat with Ms.3 and boom here it is. She has a lovely personality one you will see in the video, make no mistake of it.

“sexual healing is my favorite art form for sure...”  MS.3  

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by Jay Dee Santacruz 

Q: What is your favorite personal art pieces? A: I love making life size sculptures..This way I can hug them Q: What are your top self care strategies ? A: Strict masturbation  and aloe Vera juice. Q: What is your sexual identity? A: I identify as bi-gender. I always felt as though I had a ghost dick. But biologically I was born with a vagina. Q: Who introduced you to art? A: The first person was my cousin, who mailed me a hand made birthday card.  The art on it was flawless better than the hallmark card's from the store. Q: What was your experience growing up in South Central Los Angeles? A: My experience living in south central as a child was a nightmare. I was the youngest of 4 my siblings were not trying to hang out with their little sister.  Never had a stable home we were always moving from one bad neighborhood to the other.   Q: Why did you chose to open heart of art? A: I chose to open heart of art gallery because I could never go out without feeling gross or unwelcomed..so I built a place for freaks and geeks to be as Looney as possible without feeling out of place

Sometimes we are in a rush to change.  Transforming  takes a lot of time, focus and energy.  Don't be sadden if the change you are waiting for are taking  more time than you anticipated.  Soon your hard work and diligence pays off. You will morph in to the butterfly you fought hard to become. #TransformationTuesdays Is a slot where we  share stories and Journeys of people like you where they will share their personal accounts an how they over came obstacles before reaching their life changing transformations.  A butterfly does not transform over night and neither do people.  See for your self!