#hillston.task02

zara was actually born zoya liliya, last name taken from her mother --- a direct spit into the fact of the patronymic naming customs of russian culture. it’s been said that there was a horrible blizzard the night zoya was born, foretelling, somewhat, of her personality. she’s had many names over the years: andy, valeria, elizabeth, deborah, diana... the list goes on really. zara’s only the most recent one.

two.  how long have you been keeping this secret? zara’s been a con-woman for as long as she can remember. at first it was crying in supermarkets with her mother, as a baby, so they could buy groceries --- then it was running insurance scams, now it’s posing as a billionaire’s daughter in order to gain access to his fortune.

three.  does anyone know about it? if so, did you tell them or did they find out on their own? the only person who knows is zara’s mother, veronica. that being said, zara does consider the idea of telling isaac, the only other person she trusts nearly as much as her mother. it won’t happen, but she thinks about it.

four.  why is it so important that it’s kept a secret? mostly, because zara doesn’t want to go to prison. she doesn’t want her mother to go to prison. she can’t begin to explain how much she doesn’t wanna go to prison. zara’s already had a few brushes with the law and with death, --- she’s not exactly jumping at the bit to experience all of that over again.

five.  what do you think would happen to you if it got exposed? arrested. thrown in jail. sent back to russia. it’s a fine line really --- and largely, depends on the judge she gets for her case.

six.  are you scared of what your friends and family would think of you if it did? zara would like to claim that she isn’t scared of anything, at all --- but in fact, yes. yes, she’s entirely scared. it mainly boils down to three people: what would isaac, troy and scarlet think if the truth was to come out? she’s convinced herself that they’d hate her, that they’d think the friendship, the love and the relationships they’ve built was just a lie: when in reality, it’s the most real thing zara’s ever felt.

seven.  would you change what you’ve done/you’re doing? and that’s the rub, of course: zara wouldn’t. at all. in the slightest. when they came from russia, she and veronica had nothing. n o t h i n g. they were dirt poor who spoke a little english and no one was willing to help them out in the slightest. zara watched, as american capitalism and excess took a hold of people and never let them go --- she knew, deep down, she deserved better. that she was owed better.

so no. zara wouldn’t change any of it. because rich people are never going to miss the money --- and she’d rather die than go back to starving on the streets.

eight.  do you think your life would be different if you did? how? oh... yes. zara’s life would be incredibly different. she’d be a lot less scarred up, from stab wounds and bullet holes. she’d probably be more bitter, a rare feat considering how bad it currently is. she’d be angrier, meaner, would probably be the worst kind of high school teacher you could find --- because she’d be filled to the brim with resentment.

that, or --- she would have headed back to russia, soon as she turned eighteen, to try and find her father. she has questions, dammit.

nine.  what would you do if your secret got exposed? die, probably. disappear for a good few months. it’s similar to “i blew all my covers. i gotta go figure out a new one.” she’d need to learn how to live in plain sight, as opposed to pretending how to be someone else.

ten.  how far would you go to keep that from happening? kill someone. no question.

approached by an old family friend at one stage, he spoke of a lucrative industry that was currently untapped. he’d cut evan in on the profits, but all he had to do was look the other way. evan happily did so. from there, it only grew: now, it encompasses drug import and exports, illegal gambling dens; protection rackets, loan sharking. name it, and evan and his empire, have probably had a hand it in at some point.

two.  how long have you been keeping this secret? it started roughly a year after emily left the family, making it now, seventeen years or so.

three.  does anyone know about it? if so, did you tell them or did they find out on their own? family wise, only evan. --- outside of that? the people involved in his business. less than savoury characters who have proven their loyalty over and over again, and who evan doesn’t trust with anything other than his criminal exports.

four.  why is it so important that it’s kept a secret? to be kept out of prison, mostly. evan would thrive in prison, of course, but he has no intentions of going. his family’s name, and it’s legacy, secondly. his family’s safety and sanity of his children --- who have already suffered so much and lost even more thanks to emily’s actions. evan won’t be someone who adds his name to that list.

evan’s crafted an image of himself for the world, and that image is true --- mostly. the rest of his is reserved for his criminal activities. it is messy, bloody, thankless work, but it’s something he takes a sick, twisted level of pride in.

five.  what do you think would happen to you if it got exposed? for sure, evan would be arrested, probably be denied bail and held for the biggest criminal trial of the century. it wouldn’t be pretty --- evan would quite literally loose his everything. his girlfriend, his children, his company. his friends, his life, even. the worst case scenario is the only scenario.

six.  are you scared of what your friends and family would think of you if it did? i don’t think evan’s... scared... so much as he is worried. he adores his children, and he knows they adore him. there’s a level of fierce devotion between all of the sinclairs, especially in how they closed ranks after emily left. he worries what will change and how it will change if it all comes to light.

more than that, he worries what vera --- and their unborn child --- will think when it comes to light. he’s incresingly aware that vera’s got an image of her in his head, and keeping secrets is going to harm what they have in the long run. ( it’s especially going to harm the ring he keeps in his safe, waiting for the right moment to ask. )

seven.  would you change what you’ve done/you’re doing? no. he wouldn’t. there was a black anger in evan after emily left --- and he never quite dealt with it in a healthy way. he was the perfect, doting dad at home; but when it came time to go to the office, he was self-destructive and depressed, developing a drinking problem and caring little if his life went up in smoke.

he needed an outlet and he needed to do something --- to prove to himself just that he could. but also, to prove emily right. if evan was so horrible that she was forced to leave and abandon their children, well. he’d make it come true.

eight.  do you think your life would be different if you did? how? i don’t know if evan would have left the kids, per-say. he’s not built for that, and when you’re apart of his family, it stays that way for life. but i think there would have been a period where evan wouldn’t have been able to take care of the kids, lest he cause them serious emotional harm, or more problems then they already had.

he would have probably turned out more like his own father --- bitter and twisted, distant and emotionally cold. laughing in the face of their dreams and their pride. the kids would have come to be a source of resentment for him, reminding him of the day emily left and the day he was never good enough. and he certainly wouldn’t have vera and the family they’re building together.

nine.  what would you do if your secret got exposed? evan would go to his children first, because sinclairs for fucking life. he’d explain the situation, why it is what it is; how it happened, every single last detail. he’d expect the kids to turn their backs on him, and evan, would... honestly understand. he’d do the same with vera, and hope she’d stay. everyone else could have whatever the media says about him.

from there, evan would arm himself with lawyers --- and hope for the goddamn best.

ten.  how far would you go to keep that from happening? evan’s already killed people who threatened to expose him; who threatened to harm his children or tell them the truth. he’s bribed cops and politicians to look the other way. in short, there isn’t anything he wouldn’t do to keep the truth from seeing the light.

that being said, mal’s biggest secret is that in vegas, she drunkenly married seth’s little sister, maddie. the two were partying, and for mal it was a comfort to see such a familiar face. the two woke up in bed together: and to this day, mal just assumes that’s all that happened.

two.  how long have you been keeping this secret? the secret’s been with her for about two or so years now, give or take a couple weeks.

three.  does anyone know about it? if so, did you tell them or did they find out on their own? no. no one knows. or, well, the justice of the peace that married them, knows --- along with the two witnesses to make it legally binding. anyone else? not so much. being miles from vegas now means mal’s even further from her secret.

four.  why is it so important that it’s kept a secret? like most things in malika’s life these days --- it comes down to seth, and by extension, the jameson family. she’s always been aware her fate was tied to them the minute she signed on the dotted line, but even this is too much for her. it’s bad enough she’s holding a torch for seth, two years later: being married to his baby sister isn’t pretty.

five.  what do you think would happen to you if it got exposed? if malika was exposed, it’d mostly be awkward; erase any new progress she’s made in her career trying to distance herself from the jameson’s. it would remind everyone that for a year, she was only half of seth’s personality --- and this time, she’s jumped to his sister.

six.  are you scared of what your friends and family would think of you if it did? not... really? mostly, malika’s going to be embarrassed, and feel like an idiot. she knows her siblings and her parents will love her no matter what --- she just wishes she could save them the pain of another story about her ruining the jameson legacy.

seven.  would you change what you’ve done/you’re doing? malika would, in a heartbeat. maddie’s a doll, but the only jameson she’s ever had eyes for is seth. even outside of that: malika just wants a fresh start, and to have something which wasn’t bought with seth’s money, his name and his legacy. she’s aware that she signed on for this: but it still hurts.

eight.  do you think your life would be different if you did? how? she’d feel a sense of relief. an ability to divorce herself from the jameson legacy. the thing no one ever tells you about NDA’s and PR agreements is that shit follows you forever --- even if you’re america’s it couple.

nine.  what would you do if your secret got exposed? laugh, frankly. and then find a lawyer.

ten.  how far would you go to keep that from happening? it’s hard to say, because mal isn’t aware of her secret; and on some level she doesn’t exactly care. it’s a dumb mistake she made while drunk, and is now forced to handle the stupid fallout of. that being said, to protect her family and her new career path: there’s very little she wouldn’t do.

𝟏.  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭?

     LEO’S  BIGGEST  SECRET  is  an  accident  he  was  involved  last  year .  it  wasn’t  the  first  time  he  left  a  party  intoxicated  or  the  first  time  he  got  behind  the  wheel  in  that condition ,  but  it  was  the  first  time  he  crashed  his  car .  he  hit  the  other  car  on  the  side  and  after  a  few  seconds  of  shock  he  reversed  his  car  and  left  the  scene  without  checking  to  see  if  anyone  was  injured  ( or  worse ) .  he  went  straight  home  and  hasn’t  talked  about  what  happened  since  that  night .

𝟐.  𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭?

     THE  ACCIDENT  HAPPENED  last  summer  and  he’s  been  keeping  his  secret  for  about  ten  months  now  .

𝟑.  𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭? 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨, 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐨𝐰𝐧?

     AS  SOON  AS  he  got  home ,  he  found  his  father  and  told  him  what  had  happened .  leo  was  too  scared  and  confused  and  needed  his  dad  to  make  things  right  and  fix  the  mess  he’d  made .  there’s  a  chance  that  his  father  has  told  other  people ,  but  leo  isn’t  aware  of  that .  he  tries  not  to  think  about  that  night  as  much  as  possible . 

𝟒.  𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐤𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐚 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭?

     LEAVING  THE  SCENE  of  an  accident  is  a  criminal  offense  and  there  would  be  serious  repercussions  if  the  truth  came  out ,  that  is  enough  of  a reason  to  keep  it  a  secret .  there’s  also  the  fact  that  if  it  comes  out  and  people  know  about  it  and  talk  about  it ,  it  will  make  the  whole  thing  more  real .  so  far ,  he’s  been  doing  a  good  job  at  pretending  nothing  happened  and  that  wouldn’t  be  possible  anymore .  and  then  there’s  the  fact  he  would  finally  know  what  actually  happened  and  sometimes  that’s  what  worries  him  the  most .  he  doesn’t  want  to  find  out  he  badly  hurt  someone  or  that  he  took  someone’s  life .

𝟓.  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝?

     LEO  DOESN’T  KNOW  if  the  accident  had  any  victims ,  but  at  the  very  least  he  will   be  dealing  with  a  misdemeanor .  there  would  be  charges  and  he’d  have  to  deal  with  that  and  depending  on  how  things  go  there  would  be  fines  to  pay ,  maybe  some  social  service .  he  does  not  consider  any  chance  of  doing  jail  time ,  though .  and  all  that  is  only  if  there’s  actually  any  proof  of  his  guilt .  mostly ,  he  knows  that  whatever  happens  his  dad  will  take  care  of  things . 

𝟔.  𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐝𝐢𝐝?

     ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT .  his  friends  and  his  siblings  know  that  he’s  prone  to  do  stupid  things ,  but  this  is  worse  than  anything  he’s  done  before  and  he  worries  that  they  will  look  at  him  differently .  at  least  the  person  whose  opinion  he  values  the  most  already  knows .  it  would  also  ruin  his  good  guy /  fun  guy  reputation  and  he  doesn’t  want  or  need  that . 

𝟕.  𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐞/𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠?

     YES .  IF  HE  could  go  back  and  change  how  things  happened  he  would  in  a  heartbeat .  he  probably  wouldn’t  change  leaving  the  scene ,  but  he  wouldn’t  have  gotten  behind  the  wheel  as  drunk  as  he  was  and  everything  would  have  been  avoided .

𝟖.  𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐝? 𝐡𝐨𝐰?

     HIS  LIFE  WOULD  be  pretty  much  the  same ,  but  he  wouldn’t  have  had  dealt  with  the  nightmares  that  plagued  him  the  first  weeks  following  the  accident  and  he  wouldn’t  be  worrying  about  the  possibility  of  it  coming  out  .

𝟗.  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝?

     FIRST ,  HE  WOULD  deny  it  until  his  last  breath ,  but  he  would  also  get  his  dad’s  lawyer  on  the  phone  just  in  case .  

𝟏𝟎.  𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐟𝐚𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠?

     FAR ,  BUT  NOT  to  the  point  of  committing  a  crime .  he  would  pay  people  to  keep quiet  without  a  second  thought ,  maybe  some  blackmailing ,  or  even  pinning  it  on  someone  else ,  but  it’s  not  like  he’d  kill  anyone  to  keep  this  a  secret .

𝟏𝟏.  𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭? 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭?

𝟏.  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐛𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭?

     THE  ONE  SECRET  that  weights  on  arthur  currently  is  his  relationship  with  samantha  donovan .

𝟐.  𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭? 

     ALTHOUGH  THEY  HAD  been  sleeping  together  before ,  they  didn’t  start  to  officially  dating  until  last  december ,  so  it’s  been  about  six  months .

𝟑.  𝐝𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭? 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨, 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐨𝐰𝐧? 

     THE  ONLY  OTHER  person  who  knows  about  the  relationship  is  sam .  they’ve  agreed  to  keep  it  to  themselves  for  now ,  and  arthur  has  kept  to  his  word .  the  person  who  caught  them  together  and  blackmailed  them  with  footage ,  matthew  echolls ,  only  know  they’ve  slept  together  but  not  about  the  relationship .

𝟒.  𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭’𝐬 𝐤𝐞𝐩𝐭 𝐚 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭? 

     ARTHUR’S  MAIN  CONCERN  is  and  will  always  be  his  two  kids .  as  much  as  he  wants  to  let  the  whole  world  know  how  much  he  loves  this  woman ,  he’s  not  sure  if  his  kids  are  ready  for  that  change .  they’ve  been  through  a  lot  and  have  finally  started  to  move  past  the  loss  of  their  mother ;  he  doesn’t  want  to  risk   the  news  of  a  new  woman  in  his  life  to  undo  the  healing  that’s  happened .

𝟓.  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝? 

     HE  KNOWS  THAT  media  outlets  would  have  a  field  day  with  the  information  and  would  try  to  get  as  much  detail  as  possible  about  sam .  something  he's  dreading .  but  his  biggest  worry  is  how  his  kids  would  react  to  it .  he  doesn’t  know  what  will  happen  there ,  but  he’s  expecting  the  worst  and  hoping  for  the  best . 

𝟔.  𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐭 𝐝𝐢𝐝? 

     YES .  IT’S  THE  only  reason  he’s  still  keeping  it  a  secret .  he  is  afraid  that  his  kids  will  think  that  he  is  moving  on  too  soon  and  that  they  will  hate  him  for  falling  in  love  with  someone  else .  at  the  end  of  the  day ,  he’s  worried  that  he’s  going  to  hurt  his  kids  and  that’s  always  the  last  thing  he  wants  to  do .

𝟕.  𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐞/𝐲𝐨𝐮’𝐫𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠? 

     NO .  DESPITE  ALL  his  worries ,  arthur  would  never  break  up  with  sam .  he  hasn’t  felt  this  happy  and  this  live  in  years  and  he  knows  it’s  all  due  to  her  and  the  love  they  feel  for  each  other .  it’s  gotten  to  a  point  where  he  can’t  imagine  life  without  the  woman ,  and  he  doesn’t  want  to  think  about  it  either .

𝟖.  𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐝? 𝐡𝐨𝐰? 

     YES .  IT  WAS  his  relationship  with  sam  ( even  before  they  were  dating )  that  brought  him  out  of  the  depressive  stage  he  was  after  his  wife’s  passing .  if  he  were  to  put  an  end  to  his  relationship ,  he  would  be  right  back  there.  drinking  too  much ,  spending  his  days  feeling  sorry  for  himself ,  and  lost .  it  wouldn’t  be  good  for  him ,  for  his  kids  or  anyone  else  around  him .

𝟗.  𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝? 

     THE  FIRST  THING  he’d  do  would  be  talk  to  his  kids ,  of  course .  he’d  sit  them  down  and  try  to  explain  himself  and  ask  about  how  they  felt  about  everything .  he  has  no  idea  how  that  conversation  would  go ,  though .

𝟏𝟎.  𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐟𝐚𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠? 

     NOT  THAT  FAR .  there’s  a  big  part  of  him  that  wouldn’t  mind  if  the  secret  came  out ,  actually .  it  would  end  the  whole  ‘ waiting  for  the  right  time ’ .  

𝟏𝟏.  𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭? 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭?

1.  what is your biggest secret? vera’s secret is that she’s pregnant. 18 weeks currently.

2.  how long have you been keeping this secret? she found out when she was three months along because she thought something may have been wrong. and oh boy did she get a surprise.

3.  does anyone know about it? if so, did you tell them or did they find out on their own? her obgyn, tba, arthur, carina, lysander are the only ones that know her secret. and she told them about it.

4.  why is it so important that it’s kept a secret? vera is someone that solely believes that life is often cruel, it’s why she was so hesitant to tell anyone that fear that something could go wrong. but sharing it nothing happened, and that has been a huge relief to her.

5.  what do you think would happen to you if it got exposed? judgement. opinions are the things she guesses will happen. none of which bother her too much, she’s just not sure she’s ready for all of the opinions.

6.  are you scared of what your friends and family would think of you if it did? no, vera doesn’t care much what her “family” thinks. she’s not even sure she plans on telling them. having them do to this baby what they did to her all those years ago. being apart of his/her life and then just leaving ? it’s not something she’ll let happen, not after what they did to her. her friends on the other-hand ? of course she cares about their opinions but she hopes they realize she’s happy. and she’s always wanted to be a mom.

7.  would you change what you’ve done/you’re doing? no, long story short vera has always wanted children, and a family of her own. it may not be an ideal time, and it’s a large surprise. but she loves this baby so much already. so she wouldn’t change the fact she’s pregnant not even for a second.

8.  do you think your life would be different if you did? how? she doesn’t think it would be different by much. but she also now can’t picture her life without this child even though she’s never met them. held them. the love is already there.

9.  what would you do if your secret got exposed? i feel she’d be disappointed. upset even that it had to come from that blog. and not the way she wanted it to be.

10.  how far would you go to keep that from happening? not far.. it’s not who she is but she’s tried to be careful about it to the best of her ability even with how horrible her morning sickness was previously.