I spent most of the first three decades of my life performing for others, until I hit a health crisis I could no longer hide. Performing for others, instead of being true to myself took its toll, after I realized that my decisions, environment, and even some of my relationships weren’t serving me. I had a ton of work to do, and every time I looked at the to-do list, I got so overwhelmed that I just froze into non-action. This is how I stayed stuck longer than I should have. Stuck is not a great place to be, and from here, vitality cannot reach us.
To get un-stuck, I started writing down everything that was swimming around in my mind. All of it had space in a new, empty notebook that I purchased at a book store I retreated to after a bad breakup. I figured, what better time to start something new, for me. It’s probably the first time that I got so angry with myself and the state of my world, that I finally decided to look inward at who I really am and what I really want. What a beautiful gift to oneself, right?
Over the next few years, I became an expert at writing things down. Everything. It was part of my healing and a new way of life. Before this, I became an expert at doing the opposite—squashing my dreams, thoughts, feelings; keeping my ambitions small; letting my ideas get criticized before I could fully grow them; ignoring my intuition. When emotions rose to the surface, I eliminated them as quickly as possible. I learned that a strong, successful woman feels no emotion, and if she’s having a weak moment, she sure doesn’t ever show it. I got really good at that one.
Detoxing from this high-performing mindset opened up my life to how it’s supposed to be. We’re here for purpose and fulfillment, but I was getting in the way of the bigger plan. Limiting myself with flawed beliefs and giving the critics voice both of my ears kept me in my little space of functioning well for society. Removing layers of flawed thinking, poor habits, and limiting perspectives took some time, and until it “stuck,” I wrote all of the new awareness down. I have one bookshelf at home dedicated to my numerous journals during this stage of my life. Now, all I need to do is look at this bookshelf, in my home, for a reminder of how far I’ve come.
For you—is it time to unload some thoughts you’re carrying around? Some flawed belief systems that don’t serve you any longer? Can you give a mere week to this work? I have a 7-day focus, birthed from the perspectives and journey I share with readers in my book, High Performance Detox, that allows you to journey with your personal thoughts, life details, and your intuition through new life-transforming awareness.
During this time of new discovery in our world, and this season of trying on new ideas and seeing new clarity, why not add yourself to the list. As you consider my 7-Day Focus Program, spend time in these questions today:
Why are you spending your days the way you are?
Who or what are you focusing on?
Who or what takes most of your time?
What fears are you carrying around?
What is your inner being trying to whisper to you?
What gifts are you ignoring?
What is swimming around in your mental space?
Mostly, consider what edits you are willing to make to ‘gift’ yourself more shine and more vitality. The world needs more of this version of you. Let’s discuss more, if you’re interested. I’ll help make it possible for you!
