#highlight 2015

“Youtube vs. Live”

MY REALLY INTIMATE GROUP PHOTO WITH BTS AND 150,000 OTHER PEOPLE @ HIGHLIGHT 2015..!! Thanks TGM xP

Haha sorry everyone, I shouldn’t complain, but that ish was expensive and it was pretty frustrating and chaotic. Yes I know, I was lucky to be there ^^; I’m third from the right in the back row, though I had been closer to them before security jumbled us all around. It’s pretty unfortunate they made the guys sit on the ground too... for 20 pictures -_- Anyway, if you’re interested in more of my experience from that night, here’s my video!

I just typed each event and what I remembered from each member in order. The concert is still coming back to be because I was in tears practically the whole time oh god

FANSIGN. I have a video with just audio for reference. I obviously was not ready but it had to be done. Nikki was in front of me and Kassie was behind me. My plan was to say “thank you” and “happy chuseok” to everyone AND IT ACTUALLY WORKED OUT. I was “fine” up until I saw the first in line, JHope.

J-Hope: YOU CAN HEAR HIM THE MOST IN THE VIDEO HE’S SO AMAZING HIS VOICE IS SO ADORABLE OKAY OKAY. His greetings are the cutest thing oh my gosh he said hello and I melted. Our eye contact had me fucked up. I said my lines and he replied “Chuseok! Yeah!” wowowow HE SMILED SO MUCH AND I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA FREEZE AND EXPLODE I WAS BLASTING OFF

Suga: he’s so quiet and cute wow after I spoke to him he said “Chuseok” and I’m weAK it was so painfully short

Jimin: I barely remember any interaction with him just saying my lines and he smiled up at me and I think I blacked out for a second omg

Rap Monster: I said my lines and he thaNKED ME I swear it was NOT real

Jungkook: Okay but Jungkook is so much more handsome than I thought like the look he gave me omg. After I greeted him he said “Chuseok! Chuseok!” I’m so proud of myself for speaking.

Jin: ok I thought I would be intimidated by Namjoon but nO. JIN. he was so beautiful and wowowo his voice is so soft his laugh could create bunnies okay

V: HE SAID “HI GIRLS” WHEN WE GOT UP TO HIM AND U CAN HEAR IT IN THE VIDEO. He was so cute and precious and after he finished signing the poster he handed it right to me anD SMILED and I swear I almost passed the FFUCK aOut

CONCERT. I literally cried the whole time oh wow I’ve never been so EMO before. Some of them were on the left side of the stage most of the time so I didn’t get to see much of them. In Between songs it was hard to understand what each member was saying bcus of the screaming but seeing them was just as good. During introductions Jimin wowowoww said “I’m Jimiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin” it was just so cute and everyone cheered. Hoseok did his usuAL TRADEMARK LINES. “I’m your hope, I’m your angel (AND the fluttery hand thing), I’m J-Hope.” Lemme just say that Hoseok has the strongest stage presence in the galaxy. Every time he got anywhere near our side of the stage I locked onto him. During Dope he did this tongue thing and a little head bob aND WOW I COULDN’T LOOK AWAY HE DID IT TWICE UGH IT WAS THAT MOVE IN THE SECOND PART OF THE CHORUS W/ THE CUTE LIL HOPS IT IS MY FAVORITE . They performed NO, Dope, Boy In Luv, then I Need U last. I cried so hard during NO and Boy in luv that I barely remember a lot of it but the whole thing was a blur anyways. I Need U was so beautiful It made me cry so fucking hard I was basically screaming it was so beautiful seeing Hoseok in the middle of them and just doing moves I’ve seen so many times. Yoongi had us say his verse I swear it was so not real he ain’t real he LOOKED SO PROUD. OH AND JHOPE ACKNOWLEDGED OUR LITTLE SECTION TWICE OKAY. ONCE during the show and then THE SECOND was when they were exiting the stage after the performance. I almoST DESTROYED MY LUNGS TRYING TO SCREAM AND CRY AT THE SAME TIME ((I have asthma so with YM lung capacity its really hard for me to scream a lot during concerts)). OH. GOD. OK AY. so Namjoon sweat thru his shirt so much that I could see his nipple. his right nipple. dark and right thru the shirt. it was like I saw jesUS. THe only negative thing was how the sound cut out twice during Dope. YOU CAN TELL That Namjoon especially wasn’t happy about it, he shook his head right after it happened but wow the recovery! It skipped ahead to another part of his verse but he picked right back up at that part!! I have never seen such a professional thing happen before wow I’m so whipped.

HI TOUCH. It literally went by so fast I don’t even remember half of it but they were all so tall. I just thanked them for the show and for coming to ATL

Jin: He was so into the high five and I said the show was great and I’m pretty suRe he nodded to me and said thank you

J-hope: he smiled and greeted me and I felt like everything was alright in the world once again

Suga: He smiLED at me and said Hi and I swear that was all I needed to live forever

Jungkook: I looked at him and he had this look on his face like he was really listening to what I had to say to him and he iS SO TALL WTH IM SMOL

Rap Monster: OOOOOKAY this i when I starT remembering things. so I get up to him and we basICALLY have the same glasses on omgg and he looked up at me and he smiled so hard. his teeth were showing and his eyes were squinted and I swear world hunger is cured now.

V: HE IS SO PRECIOUS OKAY I SAID “GLASSES!” TO HIM AND POINTED AT MINE AND HIS AND HE SMILED SO BIG AND TOOTHY AND HE SAVED ME

Jimin: OKAY SO THIS IS JUST. JIMIN JJUST WOWWO FFUCKED MY ENTIRE LIFE UP. I walked up to him and I think I said I loved the show and he gave me the most sincere look and his eyes were so soft and he said “Thank you” and our hand contact really lingered. like REALLY. It was 3 seconds tops and that is a lot compared to how fast the hi touch was! He literally slid his hand, the softest thing in the world, across mine and that alone was more than I could handle BUT LIKEEEE while our hands were lingering…. so was his gaZe. He looKED RIGHT INTO MY EYES AND EVEN AS I WALKED AWAY HE STILL STARED AT ME AND IT WAS THE MOST INCREDIBLE THING I CANT BELIEVE. I JUST COULDN’T STOP SMILING. I WAS SO STUCK IN AMAZEMENT

PHOTO. OKAYY OKAY OKAY we got SO LUCKY FOR THE PHOTO OP OK OK. First of all, Brea was separated from us which sucked so hard but the lady stopped us and she said we were so lucky bcus we had the best spots. WE WERE GONNA BE RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. So she lets us through and we start lining up riGHT IN FRONT OF THEM. Kassie is to the left of Jimin, Nikki is in between him and Jin, and I’m in between Jin and Jungkook. As I’m walking up I wave and say hi to them and Jin and Jungkook greeted me back. BUT UHM JIN WINKED AND MADE THIS CLICKING NOISE AND IM NOT BREATHING OK OK. So we were waiting for people to line up anD THEY WERE RIGHT BEHIND US it waS SO NERVE WRECKING. Me and Nikki overheard Suga talking to another member and he said “Everyone is so tall” and THAT made me worry if I was blocking someone behind so I just look right and left to check really quick and thEY ARE SO TALL WHO TF AM I KIDDING I AM LITERALLY 5'0". And while waiting I didn’t know what to do like should I talk to them or just face forward or what I just glance around at them to admire the moment. I look to my right and I see the members and I’m instantly happy and then I look to my right to glance at Jin and Jimin and AND AND JIMIN CAUGHT ME SO QUICK OKAY. HE WAS FACING FORWARD AND HE LOOKED SO BEAUTIFUL AND HE GLANCED DOWN AT ME ANDD WE LOCKED EYES AND HE HAD THE NERVE TO SMIRK DOWN AT ME LIKE ALRIGHT HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING OK. I was just taking a gander at his gorgeous profile and surprisingly tanned skin and thAT FUCKER CAUGHT ME AND EFFED ME UP. When he smirked he did a small breathy laugh and idk what to do I just turned around and probably forgot my own name. We took the picture and my burst of courage came when we were leaving. They were letting people leave and so I quickly turned around and slightly bowed and said “Thank you” to them and waved and Jin and Jungkook thanked me back!! AND ALSO WITH SMALL BOWS!!!!!! I was lit like a Christmas tree in the North Pole.

Okay I would have written this last night, but I was too much on a high from seeing bangtan plus the fact that I passed out the minute I got home BUT ANYWAYS. I had really, really, /really/ low expectations for what was going to happen considering how bad things were at the other three stops in the states, but I was kinda pleasantly surprised?

 I got there at about 9am and I had a friend holding my spot in line so I wasn’t standing there as long as some of the other people, but man lemme just say it sucks for some of those people who only had the normal passes because after all the vips and autograph passes got checked they got pushed so far back in line. Check in was hella slow and delayed to 2 or 3 when it was supposed to be at 10 AM so that was a pain in the ass ngl. 

 After check in and getting sorted in some lines, a group of us were about maybe 20 girls from the front of the new vip line which wasn’t bad at all. At one point Bangtan drove by us in a white van and they were recording and you could see J-Hope and Jungkook (maybe Jimin too but I couldn't tell it went by way too fast and I'm way too short) so everyone was screaming and it was wonderful even though I though a few girls might jump the barricade to chase them. And security was bomb as hell too like??? They were the first security at a concert/event that weren’t complete assholes to the fans and wanted to make everything go by smoothly so they would continuously tell us that and like man I wanna ship them muffin baskets. Especially the guy ( I think his name was Dominick??? ) who did all the heavy lifting of setting up the barriers between lines. Also TGM staff was scarce so maybe that’s why things went by much more smoothly. 

 ANYWAYS. Once we started getting led into the venue I was not prepared to see them in person. Like my god. I probably held back the line a bit because I was like oh shit I’m blanking on what I wanted to say to them, but my main goal was to give the rapper line lots of love so my conversations with them were longer than the quick thank yous and hellos I said to the rest of the members. 

J-Hope was first in the line up and like a guy from TGM wouldn’t let him grab his own posters to sign so he kinda looked a little disgruntled at that tbh, but man oh man he gave me the brightest smile and I thanked him for everything and coming to Canada and with that amazing smile of his he was like, “I love Canada thank you for having us!” And just THIS LITERAL BALL OF SUNSHINE. 

Next up was Suga who is my bias and I blanked on him and that’s where I began to lag the line a bit. I said my hellos then I asked him to release his mixtape soon because everyone is looking forward to it and he laughed and said, “Okay, I will” and his skin is so smooth like– I think half the time I was pausing I was wondering what kinda facials he must go through to maintain it but wow.

 Next up was Jimin and Jungkook and I kinda got pushed along here so I only got to say quick hellos and I love yous to them and Jimin made sure to look up at everyone as they passed, whereas Jungkook kinda looked distracted by the overwhelming amount of posters, but that was okay with me since it’s totally understandable. I didn’t realize it until now though that how manly Jungkook had become in that short of time? His shoulders were so broad and there was almost zero baby fat left and holy heck, you are turning into one precious little gentleman I am so proud.

 After them it was Rap Monster and holy hell his pictures do not do him justice? Like the fans do not know his angles because this man is incredibly good looking and fucking smooth as hell in person. Like J-Hope I thanked him for coming to Canada and he said that he was enjoying it here so far so I asked him to come back in the future if they can and he was like yeah of course and I playfully threatened him like you better and he laughed and nodded and was like I’ll try! And at that point I got pushed by one of the TGM staff members and we exchanged funny looks because of it. 

 The last two were Jin and V and the staff at this point were like…blocking those two off kinda so I only got to wave a little and smile at them because some lady was in the damn way which is sad because in wanted to tell V that Hold Me Tight was great, but well, shit happens.

 After all that it was the preshow and somehow I managed to be pressed right up against the barrier and dead center of the stage so thank you to whoever the pushy Korean fans were behind me and sorry not sorry that I blocked the view. Consio was actually pretty decent and from what I heard in the other cities he didn’t get much of an applause so I was kinda half expecting that here, but man the Toronto fans did good with cheers, especially the girl who kept doing the Bangtan fan chants in line and updating everyone who was further away from the entrance (I think her name was Nicki but I don’t know, I didn’t get to talk to her but she was hella rad!) 

 So after Consio BTS finally came out on stage after dealing with the fussy background screen that kept messing up. They started with N.O and at that point I was pretty much instantly slayed like– I could die and been okay with it. Next up was their introductions and I had a hard time hearing everyone because of the screams and all I remember was J-Hope saying he was our hope and tbh I’m okay with only remembering that part because he was so precious yet again and in shorts doing a little jig. Everyone kinda looked miserable though, which I mean, they’ve been doing shows back to back it’s not fair on them and I bet they wanted to be with their families for chuseok. V seemed to be a bit more energetic than the other stops claimed him to be too, so I was happy to see him somewhat smiley. 

 After the introductions they went straight into Dope and everyone pretty much scream sang the entire song and this was the part where being center had its perks because the amount of eye contact I made with Jimin and Jungkook was incredible. Pretty much any time either of them were up at the front I had some serious eye contact with them. At this point it’s fair to say that Jungkook probably sweated through half his shirt because it was starting to go transparent compared to everyone else who only had a bit of sweat going on. 

Next up was Boy in Luv and I forgot how much of a jam that song was??? At this point I was pretty much slayed on the spot because Jimin knelt down on the stage and winked at me. JIMIN. FRIGGIN’. WINKED AT ME. I WAS IN TEARS BEFORE THAT HAPPENED AND AFTER– I’m still trying to reevaluate my bias list. After Boy in Luv they did the thing where they left the stage and they played video that was like are you still with us??? And obviously everyone was and then they came out for I Need U. I teared up a lot and maybe sort of cried because I was looking forward to that song the most of the ones they were going to perform and just…they slayed. They surpassed every expectation I had of them and I knew they would.

 After that they said some brief goodbyes and V tried to lag behind a little and used a towel to wipe his sweat off with and he flashy his amazing smile to us and my heart melted a little bit because I was waiting to see it all night and that was definitely amazing as well as he tongue thing he did during one of the songs. I felt bad for the security guard because of the fans who kept asking if they could have his sweaty towel though.

 So once they were off stage it was time for the hi-touch and group photos and the hi-touch went by so fast that I only got to say more thank yous and you did greats and I don’t even remember the order except for that Jimin and Jungkook were standing beside each other and Jungkook made more heavy eye contact and then Jimin gave my hand a squeeze even though the security and TGM Staff were all don’t grab their hands!! Jimin is a rebel and grabbed my hand and at this point I’m thinking I need to switch biases because he knows what’s up. 

The group photo was more like a class photo with Bangtan which…I’m not pressed over because like I said I had really low expectations for this, and I mostly just wanted to thank them for coming to Canada because hardly any groups come here. So that in itself was a blessing and kinda made me sad to hear all the other fans complaining about it.