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In order to ensure that no one else slips in front of Magnus, they—Dr. Carstairs & Dr. Branwell decide to inform everyone else of this decision. 

“You’re asking us to lie to Magnus.” Izzy calls out across the room. “We’re just supposed to what? Agree to that?” 

Dr. Branwell inhales a breath, “It’s been a few overwhelming days for him. Every piece of new information he receives is stressing and confusing him some more. This isn’t about lying or not—it’s about Magnus’s well-being.” 

“Well,” Catarina interrupts. “He has taken all of it pretty hard, didn’t speak to us for the first few days, he’s so out of it.” She avoids Alec’s gaze and he feels a little betrayed by her stance. He expects Cat to be on his side at the very least. 

“In order for this to work, we all need to be on the same page. If Magnus gets the information from the wrong person, it could make things worse.”

Alec wonders if he’s considered the right person or the wrong person. 

“I want a second opinion,” his voice is clear across the room. Even the implication of it. 

“Alec—” Jem starts but Alec raises his hand, “No. You stood in front of me a month and a half ago and told me that there is nothing more that can be done and we should let him go.” 

“Alec—” It’s Cat this time, but Alec brushes her off and continues, “I signed off on the papers to pull life support off of him and three weeks later, he woke up. I had to sign those papers,” he’s not screaming but he might as well be, it would be easier for everyone. “Not you. I had to do it. And I will have to live with my decision for the rest of my life so forgive me if I don’t believe your bullshit anymore.

|| They say that lovers create a language of their own- a language that no one but them is privy to. But what happens when one of them has forgotten that language? Is the love forgotten too? ||

|| Dr. Magnus Lightwood-Bane and Alec Lightwood-Bane have been together for six years when Magnus meets with an accident and loses the past six years of his life. Amongst a few crucial things, Magnus loses the memory of how he acquired Edom Hospital, his success as an acclaimed Neurosurgeon across the country and most importantly—his husband and the love of his life, Alec Lightwood-Bane. ||

|| Magnus wakes up in 2016 with no memory of Alec Lightwood but complete memory of his ex-girlfriend, who he’s supposed to be in love with at the time.

||Yet another amnesia au filled with angst and angst and angst because there can never be too many of them.||

Chapter V of Hope Is A Dangerous Thing

I can finally answer this ask jjjshsushskla

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"Can we discuss the elephant in the room?" he requests. He's been doing that a lot recently. 

Begging people to know more information about his own life. 

It makes him hate everything and everyone in a way a few things in his life has had. 

More than half a decade. He mulls over that number all the time--day in and out. 

"What's that?"

He huffs and rolls his eyes at them. "I think you know."

It's not that Magnus doesn't want to know about other aspects of his life--he does, god he does, but this he wants to know more than anything. 

For what else is there to life if not love?

"What's the last thing you remember?" Cat asks, finally. 

Magnus sighs, frustratedly, running his hands through his hair. "I can't pinpoint. But we were in a good place, I think?" 

"A lot has changed since."

It makes him lose his patience a bit. All the vagueness. The secrets. The fraiility with which everyone treats him. 

He's a doctor himself. One of the best neurosurgeon in the country - from what he's heard from everyone lately. He knows his condition - the good and the bad. 

"It's not rocket science, Cat. It's a simple question. Where is she?"

Cat lets out a breath, "I'm sorry. You guys broke up. That's almost seven years now."

It's impossible to hide the flash of pain on his face. 

"She left me, didn't she?"

A furrow appears on her face, "You remember?"

Magnus lets out a chuckle at the words, "No. But they usually do. Looks like out of all the things that have changed, this hasn't." 

Don't take my word for it but anywhere between chapter VI and XXV

There a a couple of missed calls from Alec, which alerts him instantly. He dials the contact and puts his phone on his ears.

“Hello?” Alec’s voice comes through the phone.

“Alec?” He replies, confused.

“Magnus, you picked up.”

He frowns.

They haven’t talked in days so it’s a little out of the blue.

“Is everything okay?” He asks.

There’s a lot of disturbance on the other side before Alec replies. “Magnus, I—“

He makes his way towards the on call room and sits on the bed.

“Alec?”

“Magnus, I know—I know you don’t,” Alec says, his voice all choked.

“Alec, what’s going on?”

“I know you don’t like me very much right now but,” the man’s voice breaks again, “But can you please stay on the call.”

He straightens up at the voice.

“Alec,” he says carefully, “Are you drunk?”

Alec chuckles but it’s ugly. “I don’t know. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have called but—but I had no one else to call. I need you to stay on the—on the phone with me.”

“Alec, where are you?”

“Magnus, we can pretend like this call never happened but—” Alec speaks, his voice breaking. “But I miss you. I miss you so much. I miss you all the damn time.”

“Alec—” he mumbles, not knowing what else to say. Not knowing what to do with the pain in the other man’s voice.

“Please. Please don’t say anything. You don’t have to reply,” Alec breathes. “I just needed to say it today.”

“What’s today?” He asks.

“I think I’m dying, Magnus.”

A small noise leaves Magnus’s voice.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for everything. I just miss you. It’s not fair,” Alec says harshly. “This isn’t fucking fair, okay?”

“Alec—“

“Don’t call me Alec.”

“That’s your name.”

“It’s not,” Alec all but yells this time. “It is but,” his voice chokes, “you don’t call me Alec. I’m not just Alec to you. I’m Alexander.”

spoiler : one of them did this to the other

can i brag u like, text me first when you back. eheheeh. im manic pixie nightmare :P

ahem, hiadt chapter 5 live reaction (?)

According to God and everyone else, Magnus had chased Alec like it would cure the world of all and every disease.

the only thing i accept #strict

There’s a small snow globe placed on top of the table in Jem’s cabin where they’re currently sitting in. It has three figurines inside of it—two men and on3 woman.

awee. spreading rumor alec hate poly

It had to be him.

i would simply not forget alec rip to magnus but im different and better

He prefers to brood, to let his pain consume him in a way that his every movement, every breath, and action reeks of despair. Likes it when someone takes a single glance at him and immediately backtracks, knowing that he’s in a foul mood.

MEEEEEEEEEEEE

That it’s best for Magnus to not tell him about their marriage right now.

Or ever.

alec girl the prenup GIRL

seated for when it come to a point magnus need a lawyer and team of bodyguard against me

oh the prenup is a whole ass character in this fic lmao. and yes ofc you can brag- you’re the first person I told when i finished the chapter brag away dear i chose u ksjsjsjsjsj